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So this is what it's come to?
G-D....
I can't stand this. I can't stand her. I am so sick and tired of the bullshit I have to put up with around this house.
All of you know me...
Am I a bad kid?
Not as far as I'm concerned.
My mom's goal was to raise us as good christian kids.
Congradulations to her, w/e.
BUT. If that's so important to her, then wtf is goin on in her mind???
I am reading TWO christian literature books, and the Bible, EVERY DAY.
I have an extremely close relationship to the church family and with God.
I am on the worship team.
I preach the Word at my school.
I have made vows to not have pre-marridal sex.
And to not use drugs, alcohol, any of that ever.
I am constantly picking up after my whole damn family, all the time!
Cleaning the kitchen every day, matt and I's room every day, picking up garbage around the house (which use to drive them crazy).
And often going above and beyond what they ask of me to do by so much!
I work my ass off to maintain a healthy lifestyle, and a healthy home.
For what?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
(Well I am not getting in to deep as to my future when I say "for what", just implying this to privledge stuff with my mom)
But seriously. EVERY time I go to hang out with Kaylin, she makes me feel way in the hell guilty. And then calls me like every hour and a half to nag at me. Or how about when she tells me I can do something, and then pulls off her last minuinte shit of "Oh nevermind I don't want you to go.....".
It's B.S. no matter who you are.
Why?
I am in tears, and pissed beyond belief. I feel confused, angry, scared, and idk. I hate it. I can't even voice my opinion to her cause seattle is in a few days and I canNOT get grounded b4 then. Gosh. Sometimes I feel like just runnin away. Wouldn't do it of course, but I swear if I wasn't the kid I am today, nothing would stop me.
Advice....? Please.
G-D....
I can't stand this. I can't stand her. I am so sick and tired of the bullshit I have to put up with around this house.
All of you know me...
Am I a bad kid?
Not as far as I'm concerned.
My mom's goal was to raise us as good christian kids.
Congradulations to her, w/e.
BUT. If that's so important to her, then wtf is goin on in her mind???
I am reading TWO christian literature books, and the Bible, EVERY DAY.
I have an extremely close relationship to the church family and with God.
I am on the worship team.
I preach the Word at my school.
I have made vows to not have pre-marridal sex.
And to not use drugs, alcohol, any of that ever.
I am constantly picking up after my whole damn family, all the time!
Cleaning the kitchen every day, matt and I's room every day, picking up garbage around the house (which use to drive them crazy).
And often going above and beyond what they ask of me to do by so much!
I work my ass off to maintain a healthy lifestyle, and a healthy home.
For what?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
(Well I am not getting in to deep as to my future when I say "for what", just implying this to privledge stuff with my mom)
But seriously. EVERY time I go to hang out with Kaylin, she makes me feel way in the hell guilty. And then calls me like every hour and a half to nag at me. Or how about when she tells me I can do something, and then pulls off her last minuinte shit of "Oh nevermind I don't want you to go.....".
It's B.S. no matter who you are.
Why?
I am in tears, and pissed beyond belief. I feel confused, angry, scared, and idk. I hate it. I can't even voice my opinion to her cause seattle is in a few days and I canNOT get grounded b4 then. Gosh. Sometimes I feel like just runnin away. Wouldn't do it of course, but I swear if I wasn't the kid I am today, nothing would stop me.
Advice....? Please.