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Ok, after days of wanting to say everything that is on my mind, but not being able to express it in words, here it goes:
I feel alone. I do. I don't know why. I have amazing friends. But I feel like I want a relationships, but I keep trying to force it. I got to Missing Anne Marie this weekend because I want that. I don't want to try. Even though we were never in a relationship it always felt right when we were together. It still does even though I havnt seen her in a while. But I want that. And i keep trying to force it with other girls. It shouldnt work that way. I need to stop. But I dont see myself stopping.
I keep changing my mind too as I search for my other. I cant even make a concrete decision. Blah. Why do I suck. Well, I dont. I realize I am really happy with everything else in my life right now.
Yea, that's it.
I feel alone. I do. I don't know why. I have amazing friends. But I feel like I want a relationships, but I keep trying to force it. I got to Missing Anne Marie this weekend because I want that. I don't want to try. Even though we were never in a relationship it always felt right when we were together. It still does even though I havnt seen her in a while. But I want that. And i keep trying to force it with other girls. It shouldnt work that way. I need to stop. But I dont see myself stopping.
I keep changing my mind too as I search for my other. I cant even make a concrete decision. Blah. Why do I suck. Well, I dont. I realize I am really happy with everything else in my life right now.
Yea, that's it.