well, well, well...
So here i am totally rocking out to PINK FLOYD.. i love IT.. i am totally enthralled into it.. hahaha.. i was thinking of making a webvid.. but decided against it.. hahaha.. then i was even thinking of doing some nice printing/writing this poem i wrote to wayner and go and drive it and leave it on his doorsteps/mailbox.. or tack it to his door.. lol.. i dunno.. i don't have the balls to do that.. so.. yea.. i might be pregnant with his kid.. i am a lil bit worried cuz i have a boyfriend.. but hez like not here hez in the states.. and if i am it would fuck everything up with that relationship.. i mean i really care about the american guy.. u know.. but if i am.. i dunno if he would still wanna be like together or wut.. u know.. i dunno if i would have the balls to even say anything to wayne.. i mean letz face it.. hez not really the marrying kind.. he said so himself he wasn't EVER going to get married.. i don't blame him after the shit he went through with thea.. that totally sux ass cuz hez so awesome.. I know deep down though hez not over her.. which sux.. i mean they were married.. i dunno but the whole marriage thing means something to me.. u know.. but will i ever be over the american guy.. omg.. i still can not put it into words what the feelings are between me and him you know.. plus i am so not even his type... u know pretty like.. i am so butch/manly.. hahaha u know.. i dunno.. here i am stuck on this damn ole fence maybe with a baby in tow with aaron running around in the field.. he would just go running into either mans arms and call them daddy u know hez got such a big ole heart.. i feel so bad i need to find that kid a daddy asap.. i dunno.. cuz BOTH of the guys get along really well with aaron.. and aaron like wayner.. and they get along.. and i know wayner likes aaron.. hew as telling about the times out at my sisters.. how much fun they had together.. u know it just melts my heart to see him with a big grown up.. u know.. i dunno i am just emo today.. i must be preggers.. hahahaha omg.. NO i better not be.. my life would be so messed up u know