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so, im going to post more often...i promise. not that my life is all that exciting...at least i dont really think so...but hey, if it makes someones day, im all for it. i do kinda wonder who, if anyone ever reads this. my crazy life.....anywho.....lets see whats been going on since my last update....(granted that would require me knowing exactly when/what my last post covered)
im watching a running commercial on tv right now....making me kinda sad....oh...its for the running shoes i just bought. damn hip. if i have to pull out of the october marathon b/c of it i will be really pissed. makes me wish i was back at bu where i had access to a trainer all the time. its a sharp pain in the back of my hip...stabbing everytime i take a step...and if im really lucky, it shoots up from my ankle into my calf up into my hip. it felt slightly better earlier when i was resting and after i work when i took a nap...but now it hurts just sitting here. im thinking pinched nerve or pulled hip flexor....neither sound like a walk in the park. especially since i dont have a day off until....saturday. which is conicidentily my birthday....and my mommy is coming to visit. that will be fun...shopping and eating and girl stuff. and birthday stuff. :)
its weird thinking about my birthday and being here....pretty much alone and so far from everyone and everything i know. i think back to last year....21....and how crazy it was. how much fun i had. and how long it took me to get to that point. four years...four years to feel like i belonged and had a multitude of friends. the crazy central square girls...the same girls that took me out for my 21st and saw to it that i couldnt walk straight by the end of it. i still remember telling kym that i could walk the straight line....as she was catching me from falling on my ass.....and brooke...and me telling her that she shouldnt come back because she was drunk and i didnt want her to fall down the stairs....she laughed and told me that maybe i didnt need any more.
*sigh* i miss them so much sometimes.....especially after long crazy days at old navy...its just not the same, nor do i ever see it being the same. the people here are not my girls and my staff who caem out in droves to a going away party before i left. they are not the people who i would do anything for and expect nothing less in return. i talked to brooke the other day...it was great to hear her voice...exactly what i needed during a crazy old navy day and having my car die...its an 01 damnit....it should NOT be falling apart at the seams....she listened and laughed and told me i have the worst car luck ever....isnt that the truth...and then we talked some more..about everything....and she just got it...understood why i hate my job and the fact that the car died and why i want to work for corporate...and tells me to keep at it....just like all of boston. they just get it....i miss that. the whole time i was on the phone with brooke, i had someone eavesdropping on my conversation....that one and one i had earlier with billie jo...WHO DOES THAT? theres a reason i dont talk to her...could it be the discouraging comments she always seems to have? im all about ignoring the negative energy. the song from ice princess (like that melissa?) says it best...'to fall is not to fail, you fail when you dont try' so im going to keep at...no matter what anyone says....i talked to kym today too...and guess what? shes thinking of moving here if she can get a job out here rather than la....that would be awesome...her moving to la will be awesome too. one more person out here :)
had a final interview for a position with baby gap yesterday...it was very weird to say the least. she didnt ask a lot of questions. and the ones that she did ask...well...i feel like i forgot how to talk or something...that i didnt sound intelligent or something....sigh...hopefully if i thought it was strange, so will everyone else...keeping my fingers crossed and a couple of toes. i sent her a nice thank you email...maybe that will get me somewhere.....hoping...so much....more than i ever have before. i really want this one....its my department....hopefully this one will be all mine :)
still waiting on the trip home...well, waiting on the job to see about the trip home and the logistics of that. i really want to go...cant wait to see brian again. it seems like i love him more and more each day. its amazing how talking to him or reading a message from him can turn my entire day around. if i was going to see him tomorrow, it wouldnt be soon enough.
ok...this has gotten pretty long...hope someone finds it entertaining. i know i can be at times...brooke happens to find my long rambling emails damn entertaining at 5am....i think i get my car back tomorrow...which means that i have to turn in the focus :( which i have fallen in love with over the past few days....atleast mine should be fixed now. ok...thats it...ill shut up now...
im watching a running commercial on tv right now....making me kinda sad....oh...its for the running shoes i just bought. damn hip. if i have to pull out of the october marathon b/c of it i will be really pissed. makes me wish i was back at bu where i had access to a trainer all the time. its a sharp pain in the back of my hip...stabbing everytime i take a step...and if im really lucky, it shoots up from my ankle into my calf up into my hip. it felt slightly better earlier when i was resting and after i work when i took a nap...but now it hurts just sitting here. im thinking pinched nerve or pulled hip flexor....neither sound like a walk in the park. especially since i dont have a day off until....saturday. which is conicidentily my birthday....and my mommy is coming to visit. that will be fun...shopping and eating and girl stuff. and birthday stuff. :)
its weird thinking about my birthday and being here....pretty much alone and so far from everyone and everything i know. i think back to last year....21....and how crazy it was. how much fun i had. and how long it took me to get to that point. four years...four years to feel like i belonged and had a multitude of friends. the crazy central square girls...the same girls that took me out for my 21st and saw to it that i couldnt walk straight by the end of it. i still remember telling kym that i could walk the straight line....as she was catching me from falling on my ass.....and brooke...and me telling her that she shouldnt come back because she was drunk and i didnt want her to fall down the stairs....she laughed and told me that maybe i didnt need any more.
*sigh* i miss them so much sometimes.....especially after long crazy days at old navy...its just not the same, nor do i ever see it being the same. the people here are not my girls and my staff who caem out in droves to a going away party before i left. they are not the people who i would do anything for and expect nothing less in return. i talked to brooke the other day...it was great to hear her voice...exactly what i needed during a crazy old navy day and having my car die...its an 01 damnit....it should NOT be falling apart at the seams....she listened and laughed and told me i have the worst car luck ever....isnt that the truth...and then we talked some more..about everything....and she just got it...understood why i hate my job and the fact that the car died and why i want to work for corporate...and tells me to keep at it....just like all of boston. they just get it....i miss that. the whole time i was on the phone with brooke, i had someone eavesdropping on my conversation....that one and one i had earlier with billie jo...WHO DOES THAT? theres a reason i dont talk to her...could it be the discouraging comments she always seems to have? im all about ignoring the negative energy. the song from ice princess (like that melissa?) says it best...'to fall is not to fail, you fail when you dont try' so im going to keep at...no matter what anyone says....i talked to kym today too...and guess what? shes thinking of moving here if she can get a job out here rather than la....that would be awesome...her moving to la will be awesome too. one more person out here :)
had a final interview for a position with baby gap yesterday...it was very weird to say the least. she didnt ask a lot of questions. and the ones that she did ask...well...i feel like i forgot how to talk or something...that i didnt sound intelligent or something....sigh...hopefully if i thought it was strange, so will everyone else...keeping my fingers crossed and a couple of toes. i sent her a nice thank you email...maybe that will get me somewhere.....hoping...so much....more than i ever have before. i really want this one....its my department....hopefully this one will be all mine :)
still waiting on the trip home...well, waiting on the job to see about the trip home and the logistics of that. i really want to go...cant wait to see brian again. it seems like i love him more and more each day. its amazing how talking to him or reading a message from him can turn my entire day around. if i was going to see him tomorrow, it wouldnt be soon enough.
ok...this has gotten pretty long...hope someone finds it entertaining. i know i can be at times...brooke happens to find my long rambling emails damn entertaining at 5am....i think i get my car back tomorrow...which means that i have to turn in the focus :( which i have fallen in love with over the past few days....atleast mine should be fixed now. ok...thats it...ill shut up now...