Epiphany
I'm so.... Spoiled, comes to mind. But then, so is Nathan.
Do you know where he's been staying? Well, I do... And it makes me very happy.
Going to school everyday with Nathan is very fun. It's amazing how often that poor man of mine falls asleep in class. I know he will do wonderfully this semester if simply for the fact that he's got me there, wide awake, taking [wonderful] notes.
Things are looking very up tonight. It's wonderful to go to bed looking forward to the next day, saying "Bring it on, byotch!" Ohyes. I've already got a gameplan for tomorrow. I've got some things I want to fill in as they require, but ... I'm lookin' forward to it. ^__^
One thing I think is kinda funny... I've stopped telling even half of what all is really going on in my life in this here journal thing. There is SOOOO much more that's going on that will never ever make it onto this page. Makes you wonder what's the point of a journal if you only record 25% (if that) of all the truly pertinent details and events of your life. But I used to report almost everything that was bothering me, going on with me, what I thought, what I was reading... I still post, but I read them and they are empty. You all know about me and Nathan, and that we're beyond happy and engaged, but beyond that...
You don't know the Tammy saga.
You don't know about the Alena saga.
You don't know about the Tiff and Tregan epsiodes.
But you definitely don't know about the Tammy sagas. "Saga" is a good word for it. My life has never had more drama in it.
You don't know about all the drama going on with Austin.
You don't know about the apartment/ferret dilemma.
Or the Casey question.
You definitely haven't heard all that happened while I was in Arizona, or while I visited Uncle Lloyd in CA...
And you haven't heard the details of Nathan's family. Cool people, lemme tell ya.
You don't know about the off-again on-again spats with my father, all of which never took place between myself and my father, but were instead mediated through my mother...
Or what they were about...
You haven't heard about the sex... (What sex?!?! You ask. Well, you may never know...)
And you don't know about the grandeur of the miracle that's been taking place for the last week in my room.... Or just why "miracle" fits the situation so well.
You don't know about the potential court dates.
Or the shit going on at work. That I'm entirely fine with.
Because of the job oppurtunity you don't know about. ^_^
And you probably won't ever get a chance to be fully caught up on it all. Unless you're here, one of the chosen few, living all this shit with me (but trust me, I wouldn't trade any of this for the world. Even as aggravating and tearful as some of the past three and a half months have been, every single heartbeat of it has been worth it. And I'd go through even more for Nathan.) and Nathan, it would take sooo much time to explain it all. It feels like since I've met Nathan, my days don't have 24 hours in them. They've got 36+, and each moment is packed with something. Even if it's just cuddling. He has the ability to make time stretch to my temporal senses. Nice ability, that. XD
So yeah... And I'd never want to throw all the details out there anyway. Far too personal. But for those chosen few of you out there reading this - you know exactly what I'm talking about on that list.
I guess this is what you would call growing up.
Oh - further proof I think I'm maturing a bit more - I've been doing all my chores. All my responsibilities - I want to do them. It's necessary. To get what I want in life, I've got to suck it up and get shit done.
It's just never hit me so succinctly before.
Do you know where he's been staying? Well, I do... And it makes me very happy.
Going to school everyday with Nathan is very fun. It's amazing how often that poor man of mine falls asleep in class. I know he will do wonderfully this semester if simply for the fact that he's got me there, wide awake, taking [wonderful] notes.
Things are looking very up tonight. It's wonderful to go to bed looking forward to the next day, saying "Bring it on, byotch!" Ohyes. I've already got a gameplan for tomorrow. I've got some things I want to fill in as they require, but ... I'm lookin' forward to it. ^__^
One thing I think is kinda funny... I've stopped telling even half of what all is really going on in my life in this here journal thing. There is SOOOO much more that's going on that will never ever make it onto this page. Makes you wonder what's the point of a journal if you only record 25% (if that) of all the truly pertinent details and events of your life. But I used to report almost everything that was bothering me, going on with me, what I thought, what I was reading... I still post, but I read them and they are empty. You all know about me and Nathan, and that we're beyond happy and engaged, but beyond that...
You don't know the Tammy saga.
You don't know about the Alena saga.
You don't know about the Tiff and Tregan epsiodes.
But you definitely don't know about the Tammy sagas. "Saga" is a good word for it. My life has never had more drama in it.
You don't know about all the drama going on with Austin.
You don't know about the apartment/ferret dilemma.
Or the Casey question.
You definitely haven't heard all that happened while I was in Arizona, or while I visited Uncle Lloyd in CA...
And you haven't heard the details of Nathan's family. Cool people, lemme tell ya.
You don't know about the off-again on-again spats with my father, all of which never took place between myself and my father, but were instead mediated through my mother...
Or what they were about...
You haven't heard about the sex... (What sex?!?! You ask. Well, you may never know...)
And you don't know about the grandeur of the miracle that's been taking place for the last week in my room.... Or just why "miracle" fits the situation so well.
You don't know about the potential court dates.
Or the shit going on at work. That I'm entirely fine with.
Because of the job oppurtunity you don't know about. ^_^
And you probably won't ever get a chance to be fully caught up on it all. Unless you're here, one of the chosen few, living all this shit with me (but trust me, I wouldn't trade any of this for the world. Even as aggravating and tearful as some of the past three and a half months have been, every single heartbeat of it has been worth it. And I'd go through even more for Nathan.) and Nathan, it would take sooo much time to explain it all. It feels like since I've met Nathan, my days don't have 24 hours in them. They've got 36+, and each moment is packed with something. Even if it's just cuddling. He has the ability to make time stretch to my temporal senses. Nice ability, that. XD
So yeah... And I'd never want to throw all the details out there anyway. Far too personal. But for those chosen few of you out there reading this - you know exactly what I'm talking about on that list.
I guess this is what you would call growing up.
Oh - further proof I think I'm maturing a bit more - I've been doing all my chores. All my responsibilities - I want to do them. It's necessary. To get what I want in life, I've got to suck it up and get shit done.
It's just never hit me so succinctly before.