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Ok, for a 24-year old girl, I've been in love 2, maybe 3 times in my life. For sake of argument, let's just call it 2. The third one wouldn't count anyways. But I came to a shocking conclusion this past weekend ..
I TOTALLY EFF UP THE ONES WHO LOVE ME.
I stumbled across one of my scribble pads a few nites ago from when John and I first started dating, and on one whole page I wrote "I will not fuck with John's head" and signed and dated it.
I really don't think I did mess w/his head at all, but he apparently doesn't have a CLUE how I felt about him. Perhaps I was a bit obscure (hey, I'm a chick, whaddya expect). I realize that I had something and wanted something more. Why? I dunno -- the only explanation I have is that I thought I could get it from him, so I went after it. And I wonder why I'm single...
I'd just really like to know why thoughts of ending everything start taking over after they're done with me...
God must really not like me too much for that.
JJ
I TOTALLY EFF UP THE ONES WHO LOVE ME.
I stumbled across one of my scribble pads a few nites ago from when John and I first started dating, and on one whole page I wrote "I will not fuck with John's head" and signed and dated it.
I really don't think I did mess w/his head at all, but he apparently doesn't have a CLUE how I felt about him. Perhaps I was a bit obscure (hey, I'm a chick, whaddya expect). I realize that I had something and wanted something more. Why? I dunno -- the only explanation I have is that I thought I could get it from him, so I went after it. And I wonder why I'm single...
I'd just really like to know why thoughts of ending everything start taking over after they're done with me...
God must really not like me too much for that.
JJ