life or something like it!
hey everyone!
Just needed a blank slate to express some feelings that I've been having. I really have no one up here to talk to, or at least thats how it feels. I feel so constricted in this town. Don't get me wrong I love my family and my job, but somethings missing. I mean I have friends up here, but sometimes it feels more like a chore to hang out with them. I know that sounds mean, but thats how I feel! I feel so lost sometimes and I hate it. I see all these ppl. in great relationships and it makes sad. I was "talking" to this guy, but it got to complicated. I don't have time for meaningless words and mind games. I'm getting to old to play that crap! I'm 22, I need a stable relationship w/ someone who will love me for me and all my flaws. I'm sorry for rambling on and on, but it's what I need! My mom keeps saying "well stop looking and thats when you'll find him". I stopped along time ago and look what it's got me! NOTHING...I'm still alone. I guess the best thing for me to do is to just relax and if it happens then great, but if not oh well. I'll end up like one of the Golden Girls.
Well on a much lighter note I'm coming down this weekend w/ Cas prolly to visit everyone. I can't wait maybe thats what I need, a break from everything. One down fall to all this depression is I started smoking....again! I know it's terriable, but it could be worse I guess. I stoped drinking so much, so thats a plus.
Well I hope everyone is doing good and I can't wait to see u all!
Mary~ Sorry to hear about ur truck. I'm glad it's getting fixed. I hope everything else is going good for u, u deserve the best!
Lynn ~ I miss ya ALOT and I hope ur doing good! Can't wait to see ya.
Jenn~ Sorry I missed the baby shower! I really wanted to come, but I couldn't get off work. I hope it was great!
Jess~ I miss ya and I can't wait to come down. It's gonna be a blast!
Ship ~ I love ya and I'm glad to hear u and Sam are doing good! I hope ur move went well.
I LOVE U ALL TO PIECES! <3
Just needed a blank slate to express some feelings that I've been having. I really have no one up here to talk to, or at least thats how it feels. I feel so constricted in this town. Don't get me wrong I love my family and my job, but somethings missing. I mean I have friends up here, but sometimes it feels more like a chore to hang out with them. I know that sounds mean, but thats how I feel! I feel so lost sometimes and I hate it. I see all these ppl. in great relationships and it makes sad. I was "talking" to this guy, but it got to complicated. I don't have time for meaningless words and mind games. I'm getting to old to play that crap! I'm 22, I need a stable relationship w/ someone who will love me for me and all my flaws. I'm sorry for rambling on and on, but it's what I need! My mom keeps saying "well stop looking and thats when you'll find him". I stopped along time ago and look what it's got me! NOTHING...I'm still alone. I guess the best thing for me to do is to just relax and if it happens then great, but if not oh well. I'll end up like one of the Golden Girls.
Well on a much lighter note I'm coming down this weekend w/ Cas prolly to visit everyone. I can't wait maybe thats what I need, a break from everything. One down fall to all this depression is I started smoking....again! I know it's terriable, but it could be worse I guess. I stoped drinking so much, so thats a plus.
Well I hope everyone is doing good and I can't wait to see u all!
Mary~ Sorry to hear about ur truck. I'm glad it's getting fixed. I hope everything else is going good for u, u deserve the best!
Lynn ~ I miss ya ALOT and I hope ur doing good! Can't wait to see ya.
Jenn~ Sorry I missed the baby shower! I really wanted to come, but I couldn't get off work. I hope it was great!
Jess~ I miss ya and I can't wait to come down. It's gonna be a blast!
Ship ~ I love ya and I'm glad to hear u and Sam are doing good! I hope ur move went well.
I LOVE U ALL TO PIECES! <3