can't sleep
There's this time of night that I don't think is specified by a literal time, but all of us have experienced it, it's that time of night in which everything is over. You've done what you planned, came home, there is no where else to go, it's too late to think about doing anything else, you're pretty tired, really should just try to go to bed and get some sleep, but the problem is, you can't and don't really want to either, so you find yourself sitting/laying awake during the time of night I (and probably along with everyone else) hate. ad
Summer has pretty much flown by, not that that's anything unusual. It's about to end, part of me is happy about that, the other part, not so much. I'm ready to get out of Washington again, escape the smallness of this town and the people that live here, and drift into a vast un-caring town where everyone doesn't know each other and more importantly, a town that I did not grow up in. Back to school, to the routine, class, work, class, sleep, more class. It's these fun times that I'll remember right? I miss it, and I miss being there, and my friends. I'm excited to go back, to see Dan and Tom ..... and Jared and Ryan, Hewy, and Holly, but it won't be the same without Janelle. I try not to imagine what it'll be like without her to run to, to talk to daily, to hang out with at Starbucks because when I think about what it's going to be like, I know it's going to suck.
Everything feels so complicated, and I'm not sure why, really isn't it all just simple? But it doesn't feel that way. Guys, friends, work, family, school, life. I wish there were just a simple answer to it all, a way to make it all right, but there's not. That's the joy of it all, right? That's what they say ... ha ha It's just a joy ride.