don't read this if you're just going to say, Colleen just shutup
wow....it all just hit me. we're going off to college. its time to say your goodbyes. but i don't want to. tonight was the first night i've cried about graduating, college, and all that stuff. it's sad. i don't want this to end. i've made like all my close friendships just this year, and its been good, i don't want it to end after only one year. why couldn't i have been this close to my friends freshman year? yeah i met you all way back then, but we weren't close like this. i miss you. i'm not even gone yet. annie is the first to go. she leaves tomorrow. on the way home from her place it hit me. go figure it hits me just as soon as people go. i wish i hung out with them all more this summer. instead it was just at peoples parties. i hope i stay in touch with them all. i love them, they're my family. i don't want to go. i don't want them to go. i kinda do wish we were still all at the academy. its so weird not to go back there. i went there today to help out with the tennis tryouts it was wicked weird. just the whole situation is weird. i'm excited to go away. but i'm not. i like change, but i don't. last year was just too amazing. i made so many great friends, lost a few, became more open to everything, i even changed. not in a bad way though. i even still have the same crush as i did at christmas time. no one knew it then, i didn't even know he lived on the next street until "Hard Luck" was filmed over there. then we started talking and i like him. one of my guy friends was the first to know i liked him, i have no idea how, maybe its just cause i stared at him all during class. lol. this guy is really special. i'm never going to forget him, esp if he keeps honking at me whenever he sees me driving or if he drives by my house :) anyways. friends. you can't live without them. i'm going to miss these lsa friends all the time, i guess i'm lucky that i have a few coming to AC with me. AMEN, i don't know what i would do if they didn't. i just hope AC is as good as i think it will be. i guess my experience there is going to be whatever i make of it. i just wish i had thought about that for lsa. going into lsa i hated it. i didn't want to be there. i hated my parents for sending me there. but i thank them everyday now for doing it. i loved it. i would not be who i am today if it weren't for them. my mom even said that she and my dad didn't think i was going to do as good as i did or be as happy as i was. but in a way i guess i did make my experience the way i wanted it to be, and i got everything out of it. i have life long friends, a full heart, a satisfied mind, and myself. lsa shaped me to be who i am. in cumberland i hated myself, but now i am comfortable with the skin i'm in. i'm so happy i became who i am, and who i became friends with. i love you guys....you mean the world to me!!!!