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It's amazing how things have changed in the last year. I was looking through my old journal entries and that was the first thing that I thought of… It is amazing how things have changed in the last year. The second thought that went through my head is its amazing how much things HAVENT changed in the last year. Ironic huh? Well let's just recap, last year I wasn't in a sorority, didn't have some of the friends that I have now, loved being an RA, was in a rocky relationship headed for no where, hated home, and was broke. Now I am broke, hate home, am in a great relationship that I am sure will last beyond forever, hate being an RA, still have rocky friendships with those I did before, and am in a sorority which was rocky at first but is quickly becoming a growing experience. Does that justify it? It's amazing how things have and haven’t changed in the last year. The latest thing is moving… I love it and I hate it, I am moving into this awesome apartment with an awesome roommate (ASH!) with my cats and no more RAing… but I am leaving behind so much… a part of my life I thought about making a career, and a wonderful and loving roommate in Vicky… I really do adore her and admire her. She is so strong and so beautiful, inside and out. Sometimes she amazes me. So yeah… I am contemplating law school as well. I think it is something I will enjoy and something I will be good at. It's a nice feeling having told people about it and having them go Awesome! I think you'd be great at it! rather than What? You? A lawyer? HA!
I miss Erika like crazy, I don't talk much to the ed girls anymore… I just learned that sometimes friendships aren't meant to be… I was hurt by the actions of a few recently and had to leave a class because I was so upset, but when I look at it now, I have amazing friends in Vicky, Ash, Vicky and a lot of the other girls, so in the end it didn't matter. I was just hurt… But I guess being hurt shows you who your true friends are… And after I graduate, is it really going to matter??? There will be very few I keep in touch with and the ones that I do aren’t the ones who have hurt me, so what does it matter now? I have Dan, he is amazing… things are… ideal. I never thought they would be, and I look back now and see what an idiot I was to have stayed with him, and how truly blind I was. But I learned from that as well. I am glad I stayed with him otherwise we wouldn’t have what we have now.. Things happen for a reason, I truly believe that. If Dan and I hadn’t dated, Greg Lehr wouldn’t have come into our lives and made it hell and made me lose my job. But by losing that job, I was given another in an office with Peggy Rosson and Kerry Krueger Devine, two amazing and strong women who I adore. And because of that job, I have found my love for judicial affairs which is leading me to law school, and I still have Dan. And I have a boss who doesn’t shun him or the mention of his name at work, but enjoys the updates and continuously asks how we are doing. Things happen for a reason. Vicky is right, God does work in mysterious ways, sometimes I had trouble keeping faith in that, but it all turned out alright in the end. I think I have a cavity. If I only had the money to fix it! I don’t even know if I have money to continue with A Phi next year! Hopefully this summer will bring in some cash that I can use to pay rent, pay off my credit cards, pay alpha phi, pay back dan, and fix my tooth with!
I miss Erika like crazy, I don't talk much to the ed girls anymore… I just learned that sometimes friendships aren't meant to be… I was hurt by the actions of a few recently and had to leave a class because I was so upset, but when I look at it now, I have amazing friends in Vicky, Ash, Vicky and a lot of the other girls, so in the end it didn't matter. I was just hurt… But I guess being hurt shows you who your true friends are… And after I graduate, is it really going to matter??? There will be very few I keep in touch with and the ones that I do aren’t the ones who have hurt me, so what does it matter now? I have Dan, he is amazing… things are… ideal. I never thought they would be, and I look back now and see what an idiot I was to have stayed with him, and how truly blind I was. But I learned from that as well. I am glad I stayed with him otherwise we wouldn’t have what we have now.. Things happen for a reason, I truly believe that. If Dan and I hadn’t dated, Greg Lehr wouldn’t have come into our lives and made it hell and made me lose my job. But by losing that job, I was given another in an office with Peggy Rosson and Kerry Krueger Devine, two amazing and strong women who I adore. And because of that job, I have found my love for judicial affairs which is leading me to law school, and I still have Dan. And I have a boss who doesn’t shun him or the mention of his name at work, but enjoys the updates and continuously asks how we are doing. Things happen for a reason. Vicky is right, God does work in mysterious ways, sometimes I had trouble keeping faith in that, but it all turned out alright in the end. I think I have a cavity. If I only had the money to fix it! I don’t even know if I have money to continue with A Phi next year! Hopefully this summer will bring in some cash that I can use to pay rent, pay off my credit cards, pay alpha phi, pay back dan, and fix my tooth with!