Waffle and soft serve
So work was hard today, got yelled at by my boss. All of this is because I can't tell the difference between front side and back side of films. So when I go to hang them, I put them on backwards. Why do I keep doing this? I do this all the time. I hate my position at work, I liked printing, I was good at that, but now I file paperwork and with my dyslexia, everything gets mixed up. Maybe I should stop using excuses and just say I suck, seems to be the easy way. I just feel like I will not advance to something I might like. I have a lot of creative things in my head, but I can never put them into action. WHY? I just want to do something that makes me happy and get paid. Can I get paid to deal with comics? Can I get paid to drive around? Every time I feel like I have a good idea something knocks it down, like high gas prices, taxes, someone wanting more money that I can give them with out me going broke. I think that is why I like doing things for free for people. When money gets involved I get stressed out, and I always under cut my self when charging prices. I would like to start learning Adobe Photoshop, just so I can try to get what is in my head on to paper, but that is very hard to do as well. I can see what I wan, but can never make it happen. I even want to learn about things and use them, instead of learning and never using it. Makes me wonder why I try so hard to do good, but I never get to use any of my new found powers. I want to feel that I can change the world some how, you know do something that will help the world some how. I don't know, maybe I am just down, I just want more stimulation. I love to brainstorm about things, I just would love to brainstorm and put it into action. Oh well life goes on and you just get over it and forget about things and go on.