Yeah yeah yeah I can't move on...
You know that feeling you get when you are in loooove, or care about someone deeply? When they cross my mind, it’s always boys; my stomach goes funny, almost fuzzy. Not nausea but also not a feeling I could live with all day. It feels nice, though, initially, when it happens.
Anyways.
Bonas and the plutonic loves of my life came to mind today at work. My stomach did that crazy funny thing. I can’t wait and I am itching to get out to New York. Can’t. Wait.
My life is upside down here at home; not in a bad way, but I need some relief. I need a new environment to think about my decisions and what and where to next. I made some doozies lately career-wise and love-wise and life-wise. The choices, I think, will work themselves out, but there’s a definite need go have a few days of ignorant bliss.
Advice for the young ones: enjoy your time. I can say with a load of confidence any drama you might have in college you *think* is catastrophic, I promise you is nothing like when you head out on your own. Bonas in particular is a stage, a stage for life where although traumatic things might happen it will work out and there’ not much permanent damage. You don’t even know independence until your not surrounded by a million friends and supportive adults and a firm community. The world doesn’t take care of you like school does.
It’s not bad, but things like support from many and joy is a lot harder to find and keep. Treasure that it’s easy now.
The excitement of being out is overwhelming.
Anyways.
Bonas and the plutonic loves of my life came to mind today at work. My stomach did that crazy funny thing. I can’t wait and I am itching to get out to New York. Can’t. Wait.
My life is upside down here at home; not in a bad way, but I need some relief. I need a new environment to think about my decisions and what and where to next. I made some doozies lately career-wise and love-wise and life-wise. The choices, I think, will work themselves out, but there’s a definite need go have a few days of ignorant bliss.
Advice for the young ones: enjoy your time. I can say with a load of confidence any drama you might have in college you *think* is catastrophic, I promise you is nothing like when you head out on your own. Bonas in particular is a stage, a stage for life where although traumatic things might happen it will work out and there’ not much permanent damage. You don’t even know independence until your not surrounded by a million friends and supportive adults and a firm community. The world doesn’t take care of you like school does.
It’s not bad, but things like support from many and joy is a lot harder to find and keep. Treasure that it’s easy now.
The excitement of being out is overwhelming.