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i really don't know how long this one's gonna take me to get over... ...it seems like i'm ok during the day when i have classes and people to distract me...but as soon as i have a few minutes to myself in the afternoon/evening...it just all comes back to me and i just start crying all over again...it's just like tonite...i was walking back from the union...and the tears just started coming...but i always feel like i have to stop and be "ok" again before i see anyone...cause i feel like i have to be so strong and not let people actually see what's goin on...especially after i've already had a few breakdowns as it is...
i just don't know how not to blame myself...and as much as people tell me its not my fault...i just don't believe it...