Overwhelming

[beachy_jess]

You ever had one of those weeks where everything is just confusing beyond beleif? If it wasn't for Mikayla, Manny, Alex & a lot of alcohol I don't know what I would do with myself sometimes. Weird how some things change. A few months ago I would have easily been one of the most hated people in Toronto. These days, I have good friends that I can depend on. My days of homewrecker have officially been put behind me. It's weird because I don't exactly know when it happened.

Some things to make note of:

• Congrats Sean & Alex. Just looking at you guys, gives me hope that my soulmate is out there!
• Craig's album is rocking my stereo! Too bad he's such a jerk. Poor Manny.
• Mikayla is going to be a soccer player. She's already kicking anything that comes near her feet! Such a daddy's girl.
  
• Britney Spears is an ugly whore.
• Strip clubs are fun but trouble :P
  
• Spinner is the sweetest guy in the entire world.
  

I guess I've also been hanging out with Hogart a lot lately. I swear he's psychic. Everytime I feel stressed, he seems to magically appear. He makes me laugh like no other person in this town. I guess it would be safe to say I'm falling for him.But its weird, I mean I'm still in love with Sully, arent I? I don't even know anymore. Part of me thinks I will always love Sully because he's Mikayla's dad and because I loved him so deeply. But Jay is new and exciting and just fun. I love being around him. When he hooked up with Britney that night, I was suprised at how much it hurt me. Sully and I still hang out a lot. I mean hello, we have a daughter together. He wants more. He can't understand that I don't think it will ever be the way it was. It can't be. He hurt me too much. I know he's being genuine and that he really does love me but I can't help feeling hurt that he couldn't of realised this when we were together. Maybe he just doesn't want to see me with Jay? In fact, I do believe there is a soccer game, that Mikki and I must be running too. Since we have to pick Manny up on the way, I best be going.

Ciao!