overwhelming
Sorry I haven’t been around much lately. I’ve been sick and pregnant and sick can mean the same thing right? working my ass off. Heather is the best roomie ever; she’s always there at the end of the day with a smile and supportive words. It’s good to have someone like her around; because I start classes in a week and getting ready for it all is a little overwhelming.
Being pregnant is the most overwhelming though; I don’t believe in abortion and I know that I couldn’t possibly carry my baby to term, only to give it away. So I guess that means in 9 months I’m going to be a mother. Heather has been so supportive; I guess she understands. I mean virtually she’s had to become a mom to her brothers. Lately I’ve felt like she’s family. Like we’re all a family, which is a really great feeling.Toby and I broke up; I guess it just wasn’t meant to be. He’s an amazing guy and I’m sure that he will find the right girl for him. I just can’t believe this has happened, just when everything was going so great - everything falls around my feet, I owe it to my child to give it a go with Sully. I mean I do have feelings for the guy and we do get along incredibly well. You can’t deny chemistry but…I just don’t know if I’m doing the right thing. I mean has Sully ever been loyal to anyone? I do have feelings for Tobes too, how could you not? He’s so sweet and supportive and he didn’t run a mile when I said I was pregnant. It was still my decision to stay with Sully.
Sully and I caught up yesterday; and talked about stuff. I told him about my pregnancy. He was really supportive and wants to be there for us. He wants us to be a family. I was kind of scared about how calm he was about the whole thing. Especially since I’m freaking out so much. We decided to give our relationship a go; we’ve always gotten along really well and there is a lot that keeps us going back to each other. like a baby for one I really think things will work out for us. I mean we care about each other and we respect each other, which is the first good signs right? Sean I know you think I’m crazy but I know what I’m doing okay? I know what’s best for me. I still can’t believe I told Sean of all people everything, but I just needed to talk to someone and Heather was out. I hope he keeps his mouth shut.
Send the hate mail somewhere else; I don’t need it.
Being pregnant is the most overwhelming though; I don’t believe in abortion and I know that I couldn’t possibly carry my baby to term, only to give it away. So I guess that means in 9 months I’m going to be a mother. Heather has been so supportive; I guess she understands. I mean virtually she’s had to become a mom to her brothers. Lately I’ve felt like she’s family. Like we’re all a family, which is a really great feeling.Toby and I broke up; I guess it just wasn’t meant to be. He’s an amazing guy and I’m sure that he will find the right girl for him. I just can’t believe this has happened, just when everything was going so great - everything falls around my feet, I owe it to my child to give it a go with Sully. I mean I do have feelings for the guy and we do get along incredibly well. You can’t deny chemistry but…I just don’t know if I’m doing the right thing. I mean has Sully ever been loyal to anyone? I do have feelings for Tobes too, how could you not? He’s so sweet and supportive and he didn’t run a mile when I said I was pregnant. It was still my decision to stay with Sully.
Sully and I caught up yesterday; and talked about stuff. I told him about my pregnancy. He was really supportive and wants to be there for us. He wants us to be a family. I was kind of scared about how calm he was about the whole thing. Especially since I’m freaking out so much. We decided to give our relationship a go; we’ve always gotten along really well and there is a lot that keeps us going back to each other. like a baby for one I really think things will work out for us. I mean we care about each other and we respect each other, which is the first good signs right? Sean I know you think I’m crazy but I know what I’m doing okay? I know what’s best for me. I still can’t believe I told Sean of all people everything, but I just needed to talk to someone and Heather was out. I hope he keeps his mouth shut.
Send the hate mail somewhere else; I don’t need it.