life goes on around me, but do i really seem to notice..
i feel so alone. all of my best friends have moved off to different states and made friends of their own. i'm here watching everyone go by without even a second glance at me. i hide my feelings behind a mask of okness. i don't let anybody know i am really hurting inside because that is the way i am. going on with life as if everything is okay when really i can't seem to grasp the point. maybe i worry too much. i feel like everybody knows my name but really that's all they want to know. they don't want to get to know me better, they just know me as sarah and leave it at that. my heart aches for a true friend again. i laugh still, but it's not the way i used to laugh. i cry now, more than i ever have in my life. but not often because i keep myself busy enough that i don't have time to dwell on things. i want things to be back to normal. i don't want to feel alone anymore. i guess i just have to face reality and move on with my life without a backwards glance. i'll get over it.....eventually.