I begin every new year with a list of To-Do's. I like to keep them as simple and realistic as possible because I really do subconsciously tune my brain to completing them before the year ends. Last year I listed things like:
stay with my job til the end of the year-- check!
grow my hair -- check
go to siargao -- double check
learn to surf -- check
Of course I dont get to do everything on the list. I didn't get to go to Vigan or Sagada, and I failed miserably at staying single. But you can't have everything in life. And besides, there's always next year.
And so I begin 2009 on a high note.
First step: CUT MY HAIR.
2 weeks ago, I went from this:
TO THIS:
So yeah, from the longest hair I've ever had, to the shortest so far. It's a refreshing change, even if someone thought I was a dike, even if I look like a boy. I like it.
I want things to change this year. It's the year of the ox. It's MY year. I'm turning friggin 24. Time to earn myself some money that will give me a future. Time to face the reality that I still have absolutely NO idea what to do with my life. I've been in this anxious mental state for quite some time now, which explains why I had such a hard time writing down my 2009 goals... so here they are, open-ended, and in question marks.
- Stay with my low-paying job and attempt to reach sales targets for a very minimal amount of commission incentive?
- Go international, but where? Australia? To work or to study? To do what? To study what?
- Start a business here?
- Buy yourself a car?
- Europe with Abe? Can i even afford it.
Okay okay.. remember, SIMPLE things. Yes, these I can do:
- Keep your hair short
- Take care of your relationships: Love, family, friends
- Make more friends
- Find a new sport/hobby
- Get a tattoo
- Stay fit -- run more
- Stick to no beef/pork diet
- Save money -- BUDGET
- Find alternative ways to earn money
- LOCATIONS: Sagada, Vigan, Pagudpud, Lanuza, Samar, Siquijor
Sucks to be lost. But hey, as Reality Bites said it best:
"The only person you should be at 23, is yourself."
I wish it was just that easy.
Here's to another year fellas. Cheers!