So Fucking Sad....
Havent updated in a long time (most likely because I have spent every waking minute with eric) but i figured everyone would want to know how eric's farewell went at the Coast Guard Academy...I have never cried so much in my entire life and I hope I will never again.
First I must say that I saw him sunday night and we went to the beach for about a half hour. He loves everyone so much and even cried. He will miss all of you very much. His friends (and me I suppose) are his world. I also want to thank all of you for being so wonderful to him. I love all of you so much, too.
Arrived at eric's house at 4:50am. Sat with him on his bed for 15 minutes starely sadly into each other's eyes. Gave him a letter and some pictures. Left his house at around 5:15 after taking some pictures of him and his family. In the car he cried some after he read my letter. I don't think I could ever love someone as much as him. If anyone has read eric's third to last livejournal update and the section about him and I, I feel the same way about him. I really want our relationship to last as long as we hope for it to. As Ulla says, he is a keeper (he thinks I am too...*sigh*).
We arrived at the Academy at about 5:50. Sat in his car for 40 minutes and then he had to get into line to sign in. It seemed so surreal but I knew I would be able to see him later on that day. Saw other boyfriends and girlfriends. Eric and I discussed how their relationships are most likely not as strong as ours. Then he got into his formation line and his family and I watched from the side as we waited for the cadre to come out and yell. Haha, the only time he talked and laughed in line was when someone threw their cell phone to their parents and hit someone in the head...how funny, only when someone gets hurt.
The cadre rushed out, took each of the three lines in, and yelled extreme amounts. I felt so proud of eric and felt a crazy, excited adrenalin rush through my body. Next week is going to be fun.
Drove around with Colleen for a while after driving Carl back home. Talked a lot with her and even became somewhat of friends.
Went back to the Academy for 13:00, mrs. turner bought me a shirt and running light (which i will pay her back for), and ate lunch. Eric's mom went to pick Carl up and Colleen and I walked around campus. We found eric's platoon practicing marching. Saw his bald head and how much he looked like everyone else and cried. So sad...it was like playing where's waldo. He went into his barrack's and we weren't able to see him until 15:30. Couldnt spot him until after the indoctrination while he was getting his photo taken. It was like his identity was stripped from him. He saw us in the crowd when his group photo was taken and we (Colleen, mr. turner, and I) made him laugh. He immediately returned to bracing up. He couldve gotten in so much trouble.
We had ten minutes to talk with him and say goodbye. After five mninutes they began to tell us each minute how much more time they had. The clock was ticking fast and at the five minute mark i began to cry. He gave everyone hugs and kisses...i was last. He almost cried when he got to me. I said I love you and to keep smiling and he was off. He stood in formation, they all counted off, then they left. He said it was a horrible day and that he was in so much pain from not sitting and constantly bracing up. It hurt me so much to see him like that. Jesus, I love him with all my heart. He IS my world.
Donnellan called me soon after, asked me how I was, then I began to ball. I miss him and love him. I want to be able to hug him and kiss him and tell him everything will be okay...but i cant. I will not leave him for any navy guys and i will always be there for him (well, after summer is over). Sorry about my ranting, i figure maybe you all want to know.
Slept 14 hours last night after crying myself to sleep. Went over to Aaron's today. I can see why he is one of eric's good friends. He is really a great guy. Thank you Aaron.
If any of you want to know more, just call me. Please write to eric. Make the letters upbeat to help him get through the summer. Oh, and tell him to keep a positive attitude and to keep smiling...I know I will.
Final thought: Aaron will post a few pictures on his livejournal of eric at the CG seeing as i cant figure it out. If he doesnt, I have them for anyone who wishes to see.
God I love him so much
First I must say that I saw him sunday night and we went to the beach for about a half hour. He loves everyone so much and even cried. He will miss all of you very much. His friends (and me I suppose) are his world. I also want to thank all of you for being so wonderful to him. I love all of you so much, too.
Arrived at eric's house at 4:50am. Sat with him on his bed for 15 minutes starely sadly into each other's eyes. Gave him a letter and some pictures. Left his house at around 5:15 after taking some pictures of him and his family. In the car he cried some after he read my letter. I don't think I could ever love someone as much as him. If anyone has read eric's third to last livejournal update and the section about him and I, I feel the same way about him. I really want our relationship to last as long as we hope for it to. As Ulla says, he is a keeper (he thinks I am too...*sigh*).
We arrived at the Academy at about 5:50. Sat in his car for 40 minutes and then he had to get into line to sign in. It seemed so surreal but I knew I would be able to see him later on that day. Saw other boyfriends and girlfriends. Eric and I discussed how their relationships are most likely not as strong as ours. Then he got into his formation line and his family and I watched from the side as we waited for the cadre to come out and yell. Haha, the only time he talked and laughed in line was when someone threw their cell phone to their parents and hit someone in the head...how funny, only when someone gets hurt.
The cadre rushed out, took each of the three lines in, and yelled extreme amounts. I felt so proud of eric and felt a crazy, excited adrenalin rush through my body. Next week is going to be fun.
Drove around with Colleen for a while after driving Carl back home. Talked a lot with her and even became somewhat of friends.
Went back to the Academy for 13:00, mrs. turner bought me a shirt and running light (which i will pay her back for), and ate lunch. Eric's mom went to pick Carl up and Colleen and I walked around campus. We found eric's platoon practicing marching. Saw his bald head and how much he looked like everyone else and cried. So sad...it was like playing where's waldo. He went into his barrack's and we weren't able to see him until 15:30. Couldnt spot him until after the indoctrination while he was getting his photo taken. It was like his identity was stripped from him. He saw us in the crowd when his group photo was taken and we (Colleen, mr. turner, and I) made him laugh. He immediately returned to bracing up. He couldve gotten in so much trouble.
We had ten minutes to talk with him and say goodbye. After five mninutes they began to tell us each minute how much more time they had. The clock was ticking fast and at the five minute mark i began to cry. He gave everyone hugs and kisses...i was last. He almost cried when he got to me. I said I love you and to keep smiling and he was off. He stood in formation, they all counted off, then they left. He said it was a horrible day and that he was in so much pain from not sitting and constantly bracing up. It hurt me so much to see him like that. Jesus, I love him with all my heart. He IS my world.
Donnellan called me soon after, asked me how I was, then I began to ball. I miss him and love him. I want to be able to hug him and kiss him and tell him everything will be okay...but i cant. I will not leave him for any navy guys and i will always be there for him (well, after summer is over). Sorry about my ranting, i figure maybe you all want to know.
Slept 14 hours last night after crying myself to sleep. Went over to Aaron's today. I can see why he is one of eric's good friends. He is really a great guy. Thank you Aaron.
If any of you want to know more, just call me. Please write to eric. Make the letters upbeat to help him get through the summer. Oh, and tell him to keep a positive attitude and to keep smiling...I know I will.
Final thought: Aaron will post a few pictures on his livejournal of eric at the CG seeing as i cant figure it out. If he doesnt, I have them for anyone who wishes to see.
God I love him so much