Runny Noses and Itching Coughs
A shit load of people are sick here at NAPS. SIQ chits all over...including myself on Monday. So friggin sick and I could have gotten a chit yesterday and one today....but I don't want to be a chit surfer and a "pussy" as they call all the people here who have been on chit for more than one day. Such a bad word. Oh well. Should have been SIQ yesterday, though. Feeling so crappy. My nose is stuffed, head all congested, and I can't stop coughing.
On top of being sick yesterday, I had to take the PRT. Did alright on my sit-ups and push-ups and ran the crappiest 1.5 mile run I have ever ran. 12:40!! Made the time by a second. I couldn't breathe for shit because I am congested so it prevented the much needed oxygen from entering my body. Thereby creating week muscles and an overall slower pace. So embarassed. Still passed but I am retaking the PRT on Thursday...tomorrow. Moss, a cross country recruit who ran the PRT in 9:40 is going to run with me, too. My time should go down by about two minutes. Sturzbecher thinks it will a lot more...not so sure about that. Still a little stuffy. If I don't get a B, then I can't get overnight liberty every weekend. I'd only get it 3 weekends a marking period (or something like that). It would also be extremely embarassing if I didn't.
Had a great weekend. I know it is wednesday and a little late to update, but I haven't had much time to. Friday night I hung out with Eric. Felt a little odd. Lately I haven't felt like my usual self...the whole atmosphere here is getting to me. Things are easy, but everyone is stressed out, pissed off, and everyone here pretty much just sucks. A lot of people are conceited and huge ass holes. All the guys want to do is get into the girls pants, too. I get so much shit for that....that gets me REALLY angry. I try not letting it get to me too much, but it just sticks and then when I go to see Eric I am in a weird mood. I want my old self back where I could just relax and let things slide more. I am trying so hard to do that.
Anyways, friday night I cried on eric's shoulder. I don't want to lose anymore of myself to the fucking military. I love it but I want to stay the down-to-earth and the always-laughing-always-having-fun girl. I also don't want to lose eric. I love him too much....so I am a love struck loser....shoot me.
Had more fun on saturday. Bought a rasta surf board. 6'6" and sweet as hell. Went surfing at first beach here in newport with a few of my sailing friends and the waves were huge! Didn't do as well as I could have because it is about a foot shorter than what I normally surf. Whatever, was still fun. I met up with Steph about 1.5 hours later and we hung out for a while. Saw Bill, too. What a laugh. Afterwards.....went home, went to Charlerstown Breachway to chill with the family, went home again to shower (swimsuit filled with seaweed from surfing earlier...surfed for only two hours, too), and picked up eric in westerly. He bought me a coffee, one of my favorites, so nice of him. So good to see him, too. I felt in a better mood that day so it made the entire evening better. Downpoured and danced in the rain...eric just smiled and watched. Went back to his place and crashed. The caffeine high shot me down. Felt bad but it was still a better night. Holding on to him was the best part of the evening.
Today has been busy. Can't wait for this weekend. Can't wait for saturday...yet my visit with eric will be cut shorter than planned because of a mandatory football game at 1300 or 1330....same fucking thing. I'm just happy the entire evening isn't cut short. And there is still sunday. I want to hang out with so many people then, but I really just want to hang out with eric. Whatever time I can get alone with him now I'll take. I feel bad for ditching whatever friends I have left...what can you do....priorities in life I suppose.
Wow, I talk about eric a lot. I guess this is what happens when you miss something/someone a lot...can't seem to get them off your mind. Frig, there's nothing else good here to think about. Nothing to keep me positive.
Must go and actually get my work done now. I have a huge group coming to my room later for help in math, chemistry, and possibly physics....I think I am their new extra help instructor. Good for me...helps me get the information down better.
On top of being sick yesterday, I had to take the PRT. Did alright on my sit-ups and push-ups and ran the crappiest 1.5 mile run I have ever ran. 12:40!! Made the time by a second. I couldn't breathe for shit because I am congested so it prevented the much needed oxygen from entering my body. Thereby creating week muscles and an overall slower pace. So embarassed. Still passed but I am retaking the PRT on Thursday...tomorrow. Moss, a cross country recruit who ran the PRT in 9:40 is going to run with me, too. My time should go down by about two minutes. Sturzbecher thinks it will a lot more...not so sure about that. Still a little stuffy. If I don't get a B, then I can't get overnight liberty every weekend. I'd only get it 3 weekends a marking period (or something like that). It would also be extremely embarassing if I didn't.
Had a great weekend. I know it is wednesday and a little late to update, but I haven't had much time to. Friday night I hung out with Eric. Felt a little odd. Lately I haven't felt like my usual self...the whole atmosphere here is getting to me. Things are easy, but everyone is stressed out, pissed off, and everyone here pretty much just sucks. A lot of people are conceited and huge ass holes. All the guys want to do is get into the girls pants, too. I get so much shit for that....that gets me REALLY angry. I try not letting it get to me too much, but it just sticks and then when I go to see Eric I am in a weird mood. I want my old self back where I could just relax and let things slide more. I am trying so hard to do that.
Anyways, friday night I cried on eric's shoulder. I don't want to lose anymore of myself to the fucking military. I love it but I want to stay the down-to-earth and the always-laughing-always-having-fun girl. I also don't want to lose eric. I love him too much....so I am a love struck loser....shoot me.
Had more fun on saturday. Bought a rasta surf board. 6'6" and sweet as hell. Went surfing at first beach here in newport with a few of my sailing friends and the waves were huge! Didn't do as well as I could have because it is about a foot shorter than what I normally surf. Whatever, was still fun. I met up with Steph about 1.5 hours later and we hung out for a while. Saw Bill, too. What a laugh. Afterwards.....went home, went to Charlerstown Breachway to chill with the family, went home again to shower (swimsuit filled with seaweed from surfing earlier...surfed for only two hours, too), and picked up eric in westerly. He bought me a coffee, one of my favorites, so nice of him. So good to see him, too. I felt in a better mood that day so it made the entire evening better. Downpoured and danced in the rain...eric just smiled and watched. Went back to his place and crashed. The caffeine high shot me down. Felt bad but it was still a better night. Holding on to him was the best part of the evening.
Today has been busy. Can't wait for this weekend. Can't wait for saturday...yet my visit with eric will be cut shorter than planned because of a mandatory football game at 1300 or 1330....same fucking thing. I'm just happy the entire evening isn't cut short. And there is still sunday. I want to hang out with so many people then, but I really just want to hang out with eric. Whatever time I can get alone with him now I'll take. I feel bad for ditching whatever friends I have left...what can you do....priorities in life I suppose.
Wow, I talk about eric a lot. I guess this is what happens when you miss something/someone a lot...can't seem to get them off your mind. Frig, there's nothing else good here to think about. Nothing to keep me positive.
Must go and actually get my work done now. I have a huge group coming to my room later for help in math, chemistry, and possibly physics....I think I am their new extra help instructor. Good for me...helps me get the information down better.