on a lighter note
I decided to go back and read my journal entries over the last 9 months I have been on this site, just to refresh my memory and whatnot.
I was really struck by the private posts where I talk about sexual stuff. Reading all those stories together made me really stop and think about the rich and varied sexual life I lead.
I mean its not like I had forgotten any of the posts I made. I pour too much of myself into every sexual experience to be able to forget any of them. But, I guess I haven't always APPRECIATED what they represent to me.
I have touched the hearts of many beautiful men (in body, mind and spirit) through an intimacy that includes physical aspects. I have done so in a way that respects my values and honors the love that Scott and I share.
I guess I am trying to say that in a world where many gay men are either sexually out of control/pathological or guilt-ridden with self-imposed morality restrictions that they subsequently battle with internally...I am extremely happy with the health and balance my sex life has demonstrated. Successfully integrating desire with values seems very difficult to many, gay or straight. I am very appreciative for what I have been able to achieve in this regard.
Speaking of which, this post by atwood reminded me of a truly incredible experience I had recently that I will post about in my locked journal shortly.
As always...If you wish to be added or removed from the list of those who can see the private entries I post, please let me know.
I was really struck by the private posts where I talk about sexual stuff. Reading all those stories together made me really stop and think about the rich and varied sexual life I lead.
I mean its not like I had forgotten any of the posts I made. I pour too much of myself into every sexual experience to be able to forget any of them. But, I guess I haven't always APPRECIATED what they represent to me.
I have touched the hearts of many beautiful men (in body, mind and spirit) through an intimacy that includes physical aspects. I have done so in a way that respects my values and honors the love that Scott and I share.
I guess I am trying to say that in a world where many gay men are either sexually out of control/pathological or guilt-ridden with self-imposed morality restrictions that they subsequently battle with internally...I am extremely happy with the health and balance my sex life has demonstrated. Successfully integrating desire with values seems very difficult to many, gay or straight. I am very appreciative for what I have been able to achieve in this regard.
Speaking of which, this post by atwood reminded me of a truly incredible experience I had recently that I will post about in my locked journal shortly.
As always...If you wish to be added or removed from the list of those who can see the private entries I post, please let me know.