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said goodbye to kalamazoo and 418 locust the other day. it was actually pretty hard even when considering how much i hated kalamazoo near the end of my stay there. 418 was the longest i've lived in one place since i moved out of my childhood home my junior year of highschool. I will miss kalamazoo to some extent, mostly the freedom i had there, even though i know i abused it. I really just need to get better, so i guess i'm making strides in that area by moving home where i won't be able to drink or anything like that. I feel ok about moving home sometimes but mostly i feel like a failure, i see everyone moving on from college and i'm stuck in a rut living at home with my parents, no clue wheni'll be able to move out, its all very sad, but oh well. i guess it's for the better. I just wanna get back into school, but i don't even know when that is going to happen either. i feel kinda hopeless. But at least i will be making some (very little) money starting tommorow, my transfer went through to the arborland noodles and company. i just want something to do is all