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ok so I am sick of all of the stress in my life. I just feel so worn out and I am going crazy. My best friend is upset with me because of things that happen...and I know that she loves me and she means nothing but the best for me but I cant stand for her to be upset with me....and I dont know what to say. Classes are kicking my butt. I had a math test this morning and I think I might have failed it. I have tried to study for all of the tests that I have this week...but my mind gets distracted with everything else in the world to pay attention to what I am actually reading. My Pop's funeral is today. It is at 7:00 so I get to go to it after I get finished with all of my classes. I am stressed about that because I am selfish and was not ready for him to go...even though he was. I think I possibly just really hurt the sweetest guy in my life. and lately I have just gotten to the point where I cant even stand myself. I'm sick of trying to please everyone and making myself miserable in the process. I just want to be happy. I know that I sound so whiney, but this is the only way that I get my feelings out because I dont want to bother other people with what I feel. Not even my best friend...so I am just going to go ahead and say...I am sorry Meleah. I'm sorry that I have a hard time expressing my feelings and opening up to people...it is something that I have struggled with all of my life. on the outside I may seem happy...but on the inside I am screaming.