Lost and Confused....
Okay so I woke up late this morning…I was running late to work and then I tried to call my baby before he left for Alaska for 12 days but I missed him because his flight was earlier then what we had thought so then I started to cry cause I already miss him…so now I am at work and I am bored cause my baby isn’t here next to me to mess with my hair or to spin me around and I am super sad….I am at a lost…then I started to think of what I was going to do while he was gone and then I realize I have lost my friends….there is no one that I can run to cause they are all too busy for little old me…well at least that’s how I feel…no one calls anymore…no one writes…its like I am all alone in this huge world...this is when I need my friends the most cause I am at a time in my life that sucks…especially since my dad’s anniversary is coming up I just wanna do shit so it doesn’t catch me at home so I don’t cry and get all pissed off cause I still don’t understand why he had to fucking die and leave me…its sad cause its going to be five years and I still ask myself the same fucking questions…well this is all I am going to write for now cause I am suppose to be working but there is nothing really to do right now…the only okay thing is that I finally get to see my childhood best friend for like 4 days…cause they came down from Germany so I am happy cause I get to drive her around Orlando with my LICENSE…watch out BITCHES…lol…I’ll write more later…