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i've probably had the worst past 3 days of my life. things just keep piling me up on me & idont know what to do. i cant handle this by myslef and i know i cant. all i can do is hope that things will get better..and if people really care about me they'll call me & Try to fix things. i'm not going to be the one to fix things. i try. i try to say how i feel & i just get shot down for it. i dont even know who my true friends are anymore. i'm tired of getting things hidden from. getting messed with & getting hurt every day. if i could i would change so many things right now. i'm moving soon. sometime soon. we'll find out tonight if were gona get this one house. it would be larcon high school though. maybe i'll go to larcon instead of conant. i honestly am considering it. i don't know what i want. so many friends have just screwed me over latley. and hurt my feelings. and i honestly dont think they give a shit anymore. i have nobody. but myself. maybe thats all i need. and if people are worth it theyll make an effort to be in my life. i'm not even just making this shit up im seroius. im so upset. we found a little bird last night . someone left it in a cage on the sidewalk. he had like a tumor or something. & he died over night. =( i wanted to cry. i don't have anything else more to say. i'm losing the 2 ppl i depended so much on.