2015 is a new year...
I was sitting at work today and I realized how much I missed having a sense of accountability that I had through LiveJournal three years ago. I want to be thin again. More than that, I want to reprogram how I live. For years I have fought with, struggled against, and caved to my eating disorder.
Daily, I hear the whisper of "why are you eating?" and "I can't believe how fat you are" from my own internal struggle. I know thinspo is wrong and triggering but I can't help but look at it. It's a daily struggle for me to be happy in my own skin. I don't want to struggle any more. I want to change myself.
I am pledging to myself and to this journal that I will post daily and I will track my goals.
My Plan for 2015
Buy:
* New sneakers (getting them tonight!)
* A good scale (that is honest in it's representation of my weight)
* A gel-memory foam mattress topper (so that I can sleep at night)
Daily goals:
x Track all calories and water intatke
x NO Coffee
x NO Soda
x Yoga x3 a week
x Walk/Run x3 a week (prep for half marathon)
x Bike every Sunday
x Stand up/Sit up straight (work on my posture)
x 99 crunches each night: 33 each oblique and 33 foward
x post to LJ each day
Dietary goals
x Drink 2.2 liters of water a day (may substitue 16 ounces for tea with honey)
x 1200 kcal a day (NO more)
x Snacks should be as close to zero calorie foods as possible
Weight goals:
Current weight: 165
[ ] 160 lbs
[ ] 155 lbs
[ ] 150 lbs
[ ] 145 lbs
[ ] 140 lbs
[ ] 135 lbs
[ ] 130 lbs
[ ] 125 lbs
[ ] 120 lbs
[ ] 115 lbs
Daily, I hear the whisper of "why are you eating?" and "I can't believe how fat you are" from my own internal struggle. I know thinspo is wrong and triggering but I can't help but look at it. It's a daily struggle for me to be happy in my own skin. I don't want to struggle any more. I want to change myself.
I am pledging to myself and to this journal that I will post daily and I will track my goals.
My Plan for 2015
Buy:
* New sneakers (getting them tonight!)
* A good scale (that is honest in it's representation of my weight)
* A gel-memory foam mattress topper (so that I can sleep at night)
Daily goals:
x Track all calories and water intatke
x NO Coffee
x NO Soda
x Yoga x3 a week
x Walk/Run x3 a week (prep for half marathon)
x Bike every Sunday
x Stand up/Sit up straight (work on my posture)
x 99 crunches each night: 33 each oblique and 33 foward
x post to LJ each day
Dietary goals
x Drink 2.2 liters of water a day (may substitue 16 ounces for tea with honey)
x 1200 kcal a day (NO more)
x Snacks should be as close to zero calorie foods as possible
Weight goals:
Current weight: 165
[ ] 160 lbs
[ ] 155 lbs
[ ] 150 lbs
[ ] 145 lbs
[ ] 140 lbs
[ ] 135 lbs
[ ] 130 lbs
[ ] 125 lbs
[ ] 120 lbs
[ ] 115 lbs