spooked
I woke up recently feeling pretty spooked, and it's got me thinking that today might turn out to be a bad day....
I had a somewhat haunting dream which i only half remember but basically it dealt with the guys i've gone through over the years and whether I've been fair or not. It's something I do worry about, and maybe the new bobby situation has me worried again. I was at a party and suddenly four guys I knew decided they were going to sit down with me and make me choose one of them. I remember feeling like they put me on the spot and thinking that I didn't want any of them but feeling guilty about how things may have gone about in the past. There was an indian kid who looked vaguely familiar, strachan, corey wilson and a fourth person I can't remember. Deciding how to best publicly reject them was painful and I felt so guilty...and i was worried about what people would think about the way I treated guys. Now some of this stuff never really bothered me much in day to day life, but it made me sad in the dream.
So i wake up not happy....then i sit up and suddenly i hear a little boys voice just pop up out of nowhere and start talking. it scared me and I realized D's radio turned on by itself. So i shut it off and as I was climbing down from my loft, I hit my shin on the ladder, and one of the support beams fell...which probably means it was waiting to happen even when i was on D's side turning off the radio. I could have fallen with that side of the loft onto dayna's stuff.
all that in the last...25 min.
I had a somewhat haunting dream which i only half remember but basically it dealt with the guys i've gone through over the years and whether I've been fair or not. It's something I do worry about, and maybe the new bobby situation has me worried again. I was at a party and suddenly four guys I knew decided they were going to sit down with me and make me choose one of them. I remember feeling like they put me on the spot and thinking that I didn't want any of them but feeling guilty about how things may have gone about in the past. There was an indian kid who looked vaguely familiar, strachan, corey wilson and a fourth person I can't remember. Deciding how to best publicly reject them was painful and I felt so guilty...and i was worried about what people would think about the way I treated guys. Now some of this stuff never really bothered me much in day to day life, but it made me sad in the dream.
So i wake up not happy....then i sit up and suddenly i hear a little boys voice just pop up out of nowhere and start talking. it scared me and I realized D's radio turned on by itself. So i shut it off and as I was climbing down from my loft, I hit my shin on the ladder, and one of the support beams fell...which probably means it was waiting to happen even when i was on D's side turning off the radio. I could have fallen with that side of the loft onto dayna's stuff.
all that in the last...25 min.