I'm barely hanging on..
You know i must be the most pathetic girl out there.. So i get a boyfriend on January 6th and now that it's time to break up with him, i don't know how to do it.. He comes back June 10th and i'm scared.. I'm scared of hurting his feelings i suppose. I mean damn i didn't know breaking up with someone would be so damn hard and painful. I really wish i could stay with him but i just can't. The feeling just aren't there anymore. I can't explain it, but things just seemed to die. He deserves the very best though, i mean that..He deserves the WORLD..and i hope he finds a girl that is willing to give it to him. It's VERY hard to explain but it's just so much commitment for a damn 15 year old! I mean i may sound like slut saying this but damn, i want to have fun. I want to date around and see what type of guy i want. I'm not ready for one steady relationship that will last years and years.. If it happens, it happens. You see, that's my problem. I hardly ever, if i ever have considered guys my age dateable.. Don't know why. But i always seem to go for guys that are 17 or above. and that's when differences start showing up and that's when problems start. I can understand why, but damn it! Me and my horrible luck. Besides, guys my age are morons! Not saying that i myself am not a moron, but i just normally get along better with older guys then i do with guys my age.. I don't know this just really sucks.. we'll see where this takes me.. As for now, i am single yet again.. and back on the rack..
muahs,
suzy
muahs,
suzy