Well...How are you feeling today?...
Well…I don’t know when the last time I updated this thing was…but ya…well…I went to San Antonio yesterday…I had to get up at like 4 in the fucking morning…and didn’t leave til 5…I got no sleep what-so-ever cause the bus was so fucking uncomfortable…and I got back like a 7-8 last night…
So now today, this morning…I am in chemistry…and I am bored as fuck…I am kinda sad and a little bit pissed though too…and its not that I am pissed at ANYONE, but just pissed cause the Island always has to ruin my plans for the weekend…u know…Now…I can never do anything on weekends cause I have to go to the beach…and the beach is great during summer though…u know… like I love it and all…just…when I have things to do here on the weekends I can NEVER do them…like the plans I had with Rachel, Kristin, Kristen, Mel and Emily are like not gonna happen anymore…not because of the island though…just because a few of us have a lot of things to do tomorrow and tonight wont be the BEST night to do “anything”…and everything would be perfectly fine…but…this weekend is like the only weekend that I could stay here and do something because I had/ve a ride to the island tomorrow…and any other weekend I am sure that I cant get a ride…cause no one ever goes to the island…so tonight is pretty much the only night that I would be able to do something because of the fact that I had/ve a ride…and the only reason why I would need a ride is because my mom wont let me take my car to the island because she doesn’t want tot have 3 cars there…so yea…but o well…u know…shit happens…its not like I am going to try to change their minds or push them to do anything…if they can’t do it tonight…then we don’t have to…cause I wont make them do anything that they can’t really do…or don’t want to do cause of the many things planned for tomorrow…just…I guess next time they will have to all find a way to go to the island…or just do it another weekend without me……cause I cant do anything any other weekend…
So I guess today I might be going to the island…and staying til Sunday…I probably wont get to see Matt either…and that makes me even more sad and a little more pissed…and its not that I am probably even pissed…but I am just MOSTLY confused…but ya…Kristin said that I could still stay at her house today…so I might just do that…cause I really don’t wanna go to the island…and maybe if I stay here tonight I will get to see Matt…man…I guess today I am just not having I good day cause I don’t feel good at all…and I am sleepy…and I think I might have fever…and I have the most massive head ache ever…I think that the only reason why I am so moody today is because I don’t feel good…so yea…I don’t even think I am that I am really that pissed at all…maybe I am ONLY confused…I don’t know though…and GOD!!!!!...I just hate today…u know…and its not even that today is Friday the 13th…cause its usually a god day for me and cause Rachel had just reminded me this morning that it was Friday the 13th…so yes
And in the past 2 or 3 days I have probably gotten not even a full 8-10 hours of sleep…in 3 day….i mean seriously…it sux…and my teacher is mad at me cause I have a attitude…and I do have one…its not directed at him though…and he should know that…I was feeling this way when I woke up this morning…and I was telling Jenna about it before class even started and he was listening to our conversation...even though he shouldn’t have been listening…and he just gave us a lecture about attitudes and how we need to act our age…and personally I don’t give a fuck…but ya…
I really don’t know what else to write…I just wanna go home…and I am getting a little dizzy and light headed now…so yes...i guess I am going to go…
*And if a lot or all of this entry makes no sense, is all our of order and is really hard to understand…I am really sorry…I am just not all here kinda…and i am skipping around from thought to thought...randomly...u know…so yea*
Peace
So now today, this morning…I am in chemistry…and I am bored as fuck…I am kinda sad and a little bit pissed though too…and its not that I am pissed at ANYONE, but just pissed cause the Island always has to ruin my plans for the weekend…u know…Now…I can never do anything on weekends cause I have to go to the beach…and the beach is great during summer though…u know… like I love it and all…just…when I have things to do here on the weekends I can NEVER do them…like the plans I had with Rachel, Kristin, Kristen, Mel and Emily are like not gonna happen anymore…not because of the island though…just because a few of us have a lot of things to do tomorrow and tonight wont be the BEST night to do “anything”…and everything would be perfectly fine…but…this weekend is like the only weekend that I could stay here and do something because I had/ve a ride to the island tomorrow…and any other weekend I am sure that I cant get a ride…cause no one ever goes to the island…so tonight is pretty much the only night that I would be able to do something because of the fact that I had/ve a ride…and the only reason why I would need a ride is because my mom wont let me take my car to the island because she doesn’t want tot have 3 cars there…so yea…but o well…u know…shit happens…its not like I am going to try to change their minds or push them to do anything…if they can’t do it tonight…then we don’t have to…cause I wont make them do anything that they can’t really do…or don’t want to do cause of the many things planned for tomorrow…just…I guess next time they will have to all find a way to go to the island…or just do it another weekend without me……cause I cant do anything any other weekend…
So I guess today I might be going to the island…and staying til Sunday…I probably wont get to see Matt either…and that makes me even more sad and a little more pissed…and its not that I am probably even pissed…but I am just MOSTLY confused…but ya…Kristin said that I could still stay at her house today…so I might just do that…cause I really don’t wanna go to the island…and maybe if I stay here tonight I will get to see Matt…man…I guess today I am just not having I good day cause I don’t feel good at all…and I am sleepy…and I think I might have fever…and I have the most massive head ache ever…I think that the only reason why I am so moody today is because I don’t feel good…so yea…I don’t even think I am that I am really that pissed at all…maybe I am ONLY confused…I don’t know though…and GOD!!!!!...I just hate today…u know…and its not even that today is Friday the 13th…cause its usually a god day for me and cause Rachel had just reminded me this morning that it was Friday the 13th…so yes
And in the past 2 or 3 days I have probably gotten not even a full 8-10 hours of sleep…in 3 day….i mean seriously…it sux…and my teacher is mad at me cause I have a attitude…and I do have one…its not directed at him though…and he should know that…I was feeling this way when I woke up this morning…and I was telling Jenna about it before class even started and he was listening to our conversation...even though he shouldn’t have been listening…and he just gave us a lecture about attitudes and how we need to act our age…and personally I don’t give a fuck…but ya…
I really don’t know what else to write…I just wanna go home…and I am getting a little dizzy and light headed now…so yes...i guess I am going to go…
*And if a lot or all of this entry makes no sense, is all our of order and is really hard to understand…I am really sorry…I am just not all here kinda…and i am skipping around from thought to thought...randomly...u know…so yea*
Peace