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fuck fuck fuckity fuck. shitty shit fuck shit. damn bitch ass. fuck shit. shitty damn fuck.
ok. I'm good now. just getting that all out because as of tomorrow, no swearing for Lauren for the next 40 days. I don't know what well that's going to go, but I'm going to try.
I told Pat tonight that I need to work everything out with Amy first, before anything else happens. he was really understanding and I wanted to thank him for that. you're the greatest darlin.
I guess Amy isn't mad, but she's.. upset, or.. whatever. She's something. and I feel so bad. SO FUCKIN bad that none of you can even imagine.
I'm not going to get into detail on here, because I think it should stay between the two of us, so that's all I'm going to say.
3 days til French camp..
I got my class rank today. I was 9th. I should be happier about that than I am..
I need to write. but I can't say anything on here. and that is the first time I've said that in a long time. I'm going to go write in my physical journal.
I wish I didn't feel so shitty..
goodnight world.
ok. I'm good now. just getting that all out because as of tomorrow, no swearing for Lauren for the next 40 days. I don't know what well that's going to go, but I'm going to try.
I told Pat tonight that I need to work everything out with Amy first, before anything else happens. he was really understanding and I wanted to thank him for that. you're the greatest darlin.
I guess Amy isn't mad, but she's.. upset, or.. whatever. She's something. and I feel so bad. SO FUCKIN bad that none of you can even imagine.
I'm not going to get into detail on here, because I think it should stay between the two of us, so that's all I'm going to say.
3 days til French camp..
I got my class rank today. I was 9th. I should be happier about that than I am..
I need to write. but I can't say anything on here. and that is the first time I've said that in a long time. I'm going to go write in my physical journal.
I wish I didn't feel so shitty..
goodnight world.