Mar 18, 2004 02:50
i feel like a part of me has died...
the reasons i am mad:
a- the lies
*the jimmy lies
*the lies to my grandmother
*the lies to your mother
*the lies to me about where you were that night
b- the lack of respect for me
*not showing up until 7pm the next day
*not calling us and telling us what was going on
*waking up at 10 am not calling us at all
*making me think you were dead, all because you didnt want to call and wake G'ma up
c- the fact that you dont even care that i am mad/upset
d- the fact that you didnt even TRY to explain yourself... you just ran to your mommy and had her do the talking!
e- you obliviously took our friendship for granted, or you would be apologizing RIGHT now... but no... you just have your mom call me in the morning telling me that she doesnt want me mad at you..
f- bringing our FAMILY into OUR problems...
g- telling people that we left after 5 minutes of looking for you... dont lie to everyone... you know damn well that we looked for 3 hours for your dumb ass... so stop trying to ruin my friendships, everyone sees you for who you are now Michelle...
YOU chose this...YOU went with 9 guys to an apartment that was 30 minutes away from our house.. you could have gone home that night.. YOU CHOSE to stay there.. so dont tell people we left you in CT.. dont tell people we didnt look for you... just stop the lies.. seriously... you dont realize how much damage you have caused by all your lies... you better stay in CT cause seriously.. the only people here that care about you still.. you are probably fucking, or have fucked at one point... people you called your "best friends" are ashamed they ever even knew you... you seriously have issues that you need to work out... i dont get how you could do this to someone you "loved" i would have died for you Michelle... you know that... and i used to think you would have done the same for me... but you of course proved me wrong... this tears me apart.. because i dont feel like a whole person anymore.. i feel like i have lost part of me, and i think i did... you were my life michelle... you decided to lie and make up stories about me... and i am not one to just let that happen...
i will never EVER forget all the amazing times we had together, and all the wonderful things we have done together... but one day.. i will forget about you... and i am not going to lie.. i hope that is soon, because it hurts too much to think that this is really happening...i thought i found someone that was going to be there with me for the rest of my life... but i know now that i was wrong again... and that is what hurts the most... 2 days before you lied... we were talking about how our children were going to grow up together and how we were going to be friends forever... we were planning our friendship tattoos... everything michelle.. we had everything... god i feel like i am breaking up with you... and in a way we are.. becuase i loved you more than i could ever love any guy... we had an amazing friendship, and you ruined it over this... i hope it was worth it Michelle...
"white days like this I'll never miss...they only come once a year..."