check it out i'm rocking steady.

[be_incendiary]

i react. emotional muscle memory, flex.
compulsion.

i broke down and wrote john a letter today. a response to one he wrote months ago, that moved me. articulate, for once, i understood what he had to say. i broke down and wrote john a letter today, even though he's not the one that i am supposed to be heart broken over.

i react.

holes in my stomach
tearing me open. one thing after an other.

a hole in my heart
tearing me open. one thing after...

a marvelous breath of defeat, collapsing.