i see that i must do it all myself

[be_incendiary]

I don't love nature the way that you do, (I can't)
but I can see and feel it through you-
and I wish and pray through your honest open mouth while you laugh in downpours
that God could help me accept the GRACE
that you breathe, intoxicated with-
You are a God
send
and a mouthful so fluid that I always bite my tongue.
This is a love letter to myself
through a strangers eyes.
Eyes I can never see through but
can feel and wish and pray through
for a version of myself
worth fighting for.