Don't feel sorry for me

[x_evilbritney_x]

After Lindsey left Alyx's office, Alyx and I exchanged looks before I walked over to her and basically fucking apoligized a million times. It was my fault. I took too much, I turned him, it's my fault. Not hers. It's my mess to clean up, but I wasn't fucking sure if I wanted to clean it up. I wasn't sure of anything right now. I know I'm a vampire

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[x_evilbritney_x]

He found Cordy, had some fun. She's mine, not his. Well, not even mine, I haven't seen the bitch in forever and now that he's shown his face around to her, she's going to go off and tell everyone and then they're going to come after him.

What the fuck is his problem.

"Lindsey, you just fucked up royally. I've asked Alyx to help you, but she won't, I tried ... Look, I love you, I do, but it's not going to be the same, we both know that, so we'll just fucking take it ... I guess a step at a time or whatever the fuck, k?"

I had to get used to him being like this, besides, I did it. Not him. It was either this, or have him die. I didn't want him to die, I couldn't go through that right now. Moving from my seat, I got up and scooted on top of his lap, looking at him, making sure not to hurt him if he had any cuts, cause that's the last thing I need is for him to complain about that.

Wrapping my arms around him, I gave him a small smile as I tried to get used to the coldness of his body that was already pressing against my body.

"Tell me how bad you hurt her," I whispered as I proceeded to kiss and nip at his neck, at the mark that I always left on him.

[lindsey_lives]

Of course Alyx wouldn't help me, the electric nutjob hated my guts. Besides, she had taken that damned bracelet off, so if anything I owed her, not the other way around. I didn't like the idea of owing Alyx anything. Made enough deals with devils when I was alive, didn't need to keep making them now that I was dead.

Britney climbed into my lap and I just looked at her for a moment. She was trying very hard, but I could see that even touching my body made her uncomfortable. Shifting so my back wasn't against the seat, I started to reach out and brush her hair away from her face, but she almost flinched so I stopped.

"First I stalked her. When I caught her, she yelled a lot." Wasn't very nice to me at all. Nasty bitch. "Ended up throwing her into an office. Busted a rib or two. Sliced her arm open. Split her lip. Then she stabbed me in the back with scissors, and that fucking hurt!" It still hurt. "She wanted me to kill her, but I didn't. Came close though. Almost snapped her neck. Then I left."

[x_evilbritney_x]

It felt fucking weird, but it was something that I had to get used to. This is what I did to him, and I only have myself to blame for it. Whatever. He came toward me and I flinched, I didn't mean to, but I did and he just pulled away comepletely. I was about to tell him a small sorry, but he started talking about how he hurt Cordy, and a small grin spread across my face.

"Oh, baby, she got you with scissors?" I asked and pulled away, so I leaned against the table and not against him. She wanted him to kill her, why would she do that? Oh well, didn't care, so I didn't ask.

"Well, that's amusing, for a second," I said and rolled my eyes and moved off of him. "Let's get out of here ... unless we're going to crash here, I'm sure we can get a room no problem."

[lindsey_lives]

Was she really concerned about my back, or was it an act? Hell, I didn't know any more. She was going to make an attempt to try and get used to me being dead, but I had a feeling that the way she reacted wouldn't be changing any time soon. I was just too cold.

I didn't even know if the sun was up or not. Hadn't really looked out any of the windows here, and there wasn't a clock in sight. "Is it daylight yet? Because if the sun has risen, I'm fucked. Unless we steal one of those special cars that belong to Angel." Oh, that would be great. Take a really expensive one and drive off.

"You know what? Even if it isn't daylight? Let's steal one of his cars anyways. He's got some really nice ones. Not like he's around to use them right now. Been ages since I hotwired one." Plus I could kill some of those damn parking garage guards. They were such assholes.

[x_evilbritney_x]

Ooh, a nice fucking new car. I can deal with that. He seemed hell bent on doing that anyway, I saw the look on his face when he said it. "Yeah, let's go do that," I said with a grin and waited for him. When he got up, we headed toward the elevator and then down to the garage. When we got out there, I saw Alyx's car and I had the urge to take that one but I didn't want to piss her off anymore than I already did. Besides, we were taking Angel's. Not like he was using it anytime soon.

I didn't know about this whole Angelus, all I knew was that I hated him cause he took up so much of Alyx's time that was made for me. I heard how powerful he was, just cause he was so old and he's from some line of vampires that could be invincible, but come on, Angel? Invincible, yeah fucking right.

I heard faint footsteps behind us and I glanced at Lindsey. Turning around, I saw some guy in a uniform walking over to us. Guard.

"Sir, you're going toward Mr. Angel's lot, you can't go in there."

Oh fuck that guy just said the wrong thing. Shrugging, I pulled out a cigarette and lit it. Let Lindsey have the fun, I'm sure he's been dying for it. "Go get him baby."

[hotlaw_lindsey]

I recognized the voice. That's the asshole who 'accidentally' ran his keys along my truck once. Turning around, I gave him a small smile. "Hey Greg, remember me?" He blinked a few times and then frowned. Oh yes, he remembered. "I'm going to take one of Angel's cars now. Try and stop me, I fucking dare you."

Smile on my face, I moved towards him. Damn it felt so nice to move like this now. Nothing but power. My fist slammed into his stomach and as he doubled over I brought my kneee into his face, breaking his nose. He howled, and I slid behind him, letting my face change. My arm wrapped around his chest, and I slowly started to squeeze. Heard a few of his ribs break and I paused. "Where are the keys to his cars?"

He whispered something, but I could hear it easily. "Thanks. Hotwiring is such a pain in the ass." I sank my fangs into his neck and drank until his heart stopped. Tossing the body to the floor, I smiled. "Cabinet behind the desk has all the keys. Let's take that Viper. Always wanted to drive in one of those."

[x_evilbritney_x]

I watched him work with a smile on my face. He did look so hot doing that, but there was jus something holding me back. I don't think it was the 'him being cold,' thing, it was something else. I guess I'll figure it all out later sometime, probably when it's too late. Whatever.

"Viper sounds great, baby," I said and strolled over to the desk, looking around for things that I may want, but he didn't really have anything interesting. I grabbed a handful of keys, not sure what was what.

Handing him the keys, I waited until he found the key and then grinned. That was a nice fucking car and I was going to ride in it.

"Let's go," I nagged, then started walking to the car. "Where are we going?"

[lindsey_lives]

I looked through the keys in my hands until I saw a set with a 'V' attached to the ring. Bingo. We headed over to the Viper and I held the door open for her and then got into the driver's seat. Man, this was a fine piece of machinery. It still had that new car smell.

Ran my hands over the leather on the steering wheel. She'd asked a very good question. I had no idea. "As far away from this building as possible. They're going to want to hunt my ass down and stick a stake in my heart." I turned the key and that engine fucking roared.

"Figured we could drive for a while, and find a fancy ass hotel or something before the sun comes up so I can hide." Didn't like the idea of bursting into flames. "Or we could grab a couple of people, throw them into the trunk, and take them back to our place to play." Both of those options sounded good to me. I hit the gas and we went speeding out of the lot. Some guard tried to stop us, but I just ran his ass over, laughing the whole time.

[x_evilbritney_x]

"Well, we wouldn't want that, would we?" I asked him and got all comfy in the seat. Felt nice. I mean, fuck, I'm in alot of nice cars, but this one? I've never been in one of these before and I bet my baby was loving it.

"Whatever you wanna do is fine with me." When he started up the car, I went ahead and turned the channel to something that I liked and danced along with it as we headed out of the garage. I laughed as we ran over the one gaurd that was coming after us and I looked over at Lindsey. He was free. That's all he wanted and now that's what he was.

Leaning over, I kissed him hard, not caring if we crashed into anything and ran my hand up his thigh until it rested on the button to his pants. "Just drive, baby," I told him and kissed his neck as I unbuttoned his pants and then slowly pulled his zipper down. I licked up his neck before pulling away and getting myself comfortable, then wrapped my lips around his cold cock. Felt different. Everything about him was different, but I loved him and it didn't matter. Not anymore. I wanted him to know that.

[lindsey_lives]

When Britney kissed me, the Viper swerved into another lane, causing cars to honk, but I ignored them. She was still here with me. Driving down the highway at almost ninety miles an hour while your girlfriend's lips are on your cock is quite a fucking rush.

I pushed my foot down on the gas when her tongue started to work its magic on me. Weaved in and out of traffic, barely missing the other cars. If they were stupid enough to get in my way, they deserved to get hit. Simple as that. I groaned, swerving around a garbage truck and flipped the driver off.

As the little red needle went by one hundred and ten, the Viper started to shake and I was having a much harder time controling it. "Baby, we've got to keep this fucking thing, it's amazing!" Britney's hand joined her mouth and I almost hit a semi. "Love you, darlin'. Forever and always."

[x_evilbritney_x]

I could feel the car swerving and I grinned as I continued doing what I was doing. Stroking him, sucking him, doing anything I could possibly do to show him that I still did want him. When he came, I sat back up, wiping my mouth and helped get him back in his pants. "I love you too and what the fuck, how fast are you going?" I asked, laughing a little as I dug through my purse getting out my cigarettes.

"Baby, stop swerving, I'm trying to light this, baby!" I yelled and then looked at him. He was in his own little world. Just rolled my eyes and lit up, then rolled down the window, watching out for where we were going. I jumped a few times when we almost got hit head on by cars, but it was fine, he was doing fucking great for driving as fast as he was.

"Did you decide where we're going?"

[lindsey_lives]

I took my foot off the gas a little so I could handle the car better. "Just over one hundred, darlin'. This thing can fucking drive!" I watched her out of the corner of my eye. Britney was having as much fun as I was. Oh right, we needed to get somewhere soon. Preferably without windows.

Been driving south on the highway, and I saw a sign that read 'Hawaiian Gardens Casino'. We'd wanted to go to Hawaii, and this was close enough. "Let's go there, see if we can find some of those girls in hula skirts to chew up." I licked my lips and gave Britney a big grin.

Took the exit and parked the car in the lot, making sure to set the alarm when we got out. No way was I going to let this thing get stolen. Told the guy at the counter we needed a room without windows and he didn't even bat an eye. Was probably used to people requesting things.

After we got the key, Britney and I turned and walked into the casino part for a moment, where a couple girls came over and put those flower necklaces over our heads. "Check it out baby, I just got lei'd!" I laughed. We needed to take a couple people back to the room with us. I was getting very hungry.

[x_evilbritney_x]

I just rolled my eyes and went with whatever he wanted to do. I didn't give a fuck what he did, he was having fun, he was free. "Yeah, let's go see those girls." We drove and drove, finally getting off the exit and we got in the parking lot. We parked the car, he set off the alarm and we headed inside.

Let him do all the talking and then we were walking toward the casino part of the hotel. A few girls came over and I just watched as they flirted and put the leis on him and me and giggled when he said he got laid.

"Yeah, you'll get that later baby," I told him and walked into the casino. Nothing but slots, dealer tables and everything that you could possibly imagine. "Wanna play baby, let's go play," I asked and dragged him along with me through the crowds. I pulled out my wallet and got some money out. I exchanged the money for quarters and then I was ready.

"Let's go play," I smiled and leaned against him as we walked. Was really fucking different still, but I was getting used to it. He was still my baby, that's all that mattered to me for the time being. Until he pissed me off and then I'd fucking dust him. I really hope that wouldn't happen.

[hotlaw_lindsey]

She pulled me through the crowd and I almost felt lost in a sea of people. The scents were driving me right up the wall. It was almost over-stimulating. Guess I would have to get used to it.

I hadn't known there were this many old people in California. You'd think they'd all be in Florida or something, but they were lined up, row after row, putting quarters into slot machines and pulling on the handle. It was almost hypnotic to watch them. Coin, pull, mutter. Lather, rinse, repeat. I swear one old lady hissed at me when I bumped her.

There weren't any windows or skylights, so I was safe. "Let's try those over there." She'd get bored soon, then we would have to grab someone to eat. I sat down on one of the stools and she climbed into my lap. Took a qurater from Britney's hand and stuck it in the machine.

"Pull the handle, baby." Felt her hand on my pants and I bit back a groan. "The one on the machine. You can pull the other one when we get up to the room." Chuckling, I watched as Britney pulled the lever. It spun around a couple of times, and then a whole bunch of quarters came pouring out. "Hot damn, you hit the jackpot!"

[x_evilbritney_x]

"Oh, but baby, don't you know I can just pull on that here?" I asked him playfully and then pulled the lever. A whole bunch of quarters came out and I jumped from the stool, doing a small victory dance. Whatever the fuck that means, whatever it's called, I did it.

"That's mother fuckin' right!" I yelled and then saw someone that worked there come over to us with a grin on his face. He gathered the quarters and I frowned, wondering what he was doing, but then he told me that I just won five hundred dollars and then exchanged the quarters for bills. "Fuckin' right, baby."

Turning around, I wrapped my arms around Lindsey and gave him a hard, sounding kiss before pulling away. "Let's get you a snack and then we'll go upstairs baby," I smiled and pulled on his lever again with a grin before walking away and pocketing the cash.