Yesterday
Title: Yesterday
Pairing: broken!Changmin/Jaejoong (implied Yoochun/Jaejoong)
Rating: PG-13 for discussed sexual themes
Disclaimer: They aren't mine ... which is sad, but not as sad as this.
A/N: Twister didn't end up being as angsty as I thought it would be, so here is some broken!JaeMin to make up for it.
The lyrics in italics are from the Love Song from the Disney Cartoon Robin Hood.
Love
It seems like only yesterday ...
"You okay, Jaejoong?"
Jaejoong looked up and met Junsu's worried eyes. The tears at the corners glistened for a moment before falling. Junsu frowned, and then caught sight of the picture on Jaejoong's laptop: a still of Changmin and Yunho from their Taxi appearance. Yunho leaned against Changmin's shoulder.
Junsu stepped into the room only long enough to press a kiss to Jaejoong's forehead. Jaejoong smiled. He understood. Yoochun would offer more comfort, different comfort. When he wasn't busy anyway ...
You were just a child at play
Now you're all grown up inside of me ...
Jaejoong stared at the picture and wondered if Yunho and Changmin were fucking. He'd fallen in love with Changmin so easily. Would Yunho too?
Without the others around and only the two of them would Changmin and Yunho find solace and comfort with each other? The thought burned red fury through Jaejoong's body.
And then he remembered Yoochun. He had no right to be angry with Changmin when he was letting Yoochun feel by fucking him. It wasn't the same, of course. There was no emotional feeling in their early morning fucks. No passion. No whispered love confessions ...
Oh, how fast those moments flee ...
Changmin had said, how many months ago, that he did not want to talk right now. Jaejoong knew what he meant. He watched every appearance of DBSK on every music show. Every variety show. Every talk show. He downloaded them and memorized them. He stared at Yunho's tired eyes, and tried to find cracks in Changmin's tough facade ...
Once we watched a lazy world go by
Now the days seem to fly ...
It would have been easier to show that he still loved his maknae if he'd gotten to see Changmin. Maybe after the world tour. Maybe after Before U Go promotions. He'd send Changmin a text, try to call. Something ...
Life is brief, but when it's gone
Love goes on and on ...
Every time with Yoochun, Jaejoong's heart broke a little more. But he loved Yoochun. And this was what Yoochun needed to cope. Jaejoong needed Changmin. Jaejoong could not have Changmin. Not anymore. Maybe he should learn to love Yoochun like he loved Changmin, but Jaejoong did not know the difference. He didn't know why Yoochun did not make his heart race, or make his smile wider, or make his laugh louder.
When Jaejoong thought of Changmin, happiness filled him.
When Jaejoong through of Yoochun, it reminded him of what he could no longer have ...
Love will live
Love will last
Love goes on and on and on ...
"Um ... hey, Minnie- ... Changmin-shi. This, well you know who this is. Please call me. I lov- ... I want to see you. If--no--I ... Please."
The next time Jaejoong tried to call, his number was not blocked. Not like the other times. He left another message, trying not to be too excited as he told Changmin about his day, and ended with another plea to call him.
Tomorrow. Maybe Changmin would call tomorrow.
.
Pairing: broken!Changmin/Jaejoong (implied Yoochun/Jaejoong)
Rating: PG-13 for discussed sexual themes
Disclaimer: They aren't mine ... which is sad, but not as sad as this.
A/N: Twister didn't end up being as angsty as I thought it would be, so here is some broken!JaeMin to make up for it.
The lyrics in italics are from the Love Song from the Disney Cartoon Robin Hood.
Love
It seems like only yesterday ...
"You okay, Jaejoong?"
Jaejoong looked up and met Junsu's worried eyes. The tears at the corners glistened for a moment before falling. Junsu frowned, and then caught sight of the picture on Jaejoong's laptop: a still of Changmin and Yunho from their Taxi appearance. Yunho leaned against Changmin's shoulder.
Junsu stepped into the room only long enough to press a kiss to Jaejoong's forehead. Jaejoong smiled. He understood. Yoochun would offer more comfort, different comfort. When he wasn't busy anyway ...
You were just a child at play
Now you're all grown up inside of me ...
Jaejoong stared at the picture and wondered if Yunho and Changmin were fucking. He'd fallen in love with Changmin so easily. Would Yunho too?
Without the others around and only the two of them would Changmin and Yunho find solace and comfort with each other? The thought burned red fury through Jaejoong's body.
And then he remembered Yoochun. He had no right to be angry with Changmin when he was letting Yoochun feel by fucking him. It wasn't the same, of course. There was no emotional feeling in their early morning fucks. No passion. No whispered love confessions ...
Oh, how fast those moments flee ...
Changmin had said, how many months ago, that he did not want to talk right now. Jaejoong knew what he meant. He watched every appearance of DBSK on every music show. Every variety show. Every talk show. He downloaded them and memorized them. He stared at Yunho's tired eyes, and tried to find cracks in Changmin's tough facade ...
Once we watched a lazy world go by
Now the days seem to fly ...
It would have been easier to show that he still loved his maknae if he'd gotten to see Changmin. Maybe after the world tour. Maybe after Before U Go promotions. He'd send Changmin a text, try to call. Something ...
Life is brief, but when it's gone
Love goes on and on ...
Every time with Yoochun, Jaejoong's heart broke a little more. But he loved Yoochun. And this was what Yoochun needed to cope. Jaejoong needed Changmin. Jaejoong could not have Changmin. Not anymore. Maybe he should learn to love Yoochun like he loved Changmin, but Jaejoong did not know the difference. He didn't know why Yoochun did not make his heart race, or make his smile wider, or make his laugh louder.
When Jaejoong thought of Changmin, happiness filled him.
When Jaejoong through of Yoochun, it reminded him of what he could no longer have ...
Love will live
Love will last
Love goes on and on and on ...
"Um ... hey, Minnie- ... Changmin-shi. This, well you know who this is. Please call me. I lov- ... I want to see you. If--no--I ... Please."
The next time Jaejoong tried to call, his number was not blocked. Not like the other times. He left another message, trying not to be too excited as he told Changmin about his day, and ended with another plea to call him.
Tomorrow. Maybe Changmin would call tomorrow.
.