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... Feels kind of lonely...
Ever feel like you should say something, but. Can't?
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::Is leaving a convention hall that was doing Dueling Tournaments for money, wearing a black dress. She seems down. Kind of at ease, but definitely not the most pleasant. She's flipping through her deck, with a a briefcase full of money ( Read more... )
... Feels kind of lonely...
Ever feel like you should say something, but. Can't?
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::Is leaving a convention hall that was doing Dueling Tournaments for money, wearing a black dress. She seems down. Kind of at ease, but definitely not the most pleasant. She's flipping through her deck, with a a briefcase full of money ( Read more... )
... What's up?
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... I keep trying to write something back to Jinn, try and talk to him. And... I can't bring myself to really do so. I. Don't feel much of anything about the relationship for some reason.
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... despite being with him for so long?
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Yeah. I liked him. I kind of like him. But I can't... seem to like him. I don't know why I liked him. Maybe it was just puppy love...?
Though, Mom's not taking it well.
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... I dunno. It seems kinda out of nowhere, to me-- you wouldn't have gotten mad at him like you did, if you didn't feel something about it.
That isn't surprising.
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... I know, but. I can't really. Bring myself to feel anything. It's the weirdest thing. I'm mad at him, I loved him, I want to try and talk about it... but. There's this giant Wall of "Don't give a damn" and "Eh" standing in front of me. Maybe it's shock.
Yeah. I keep getting yelled at every day over the matter. I've kind of. Stuck to going into more private "For Cash" dueling tournaments to just blow off steam, but...
I dunno. It feels like the last year or three were a lie... and I don't like that feeling...
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Maybe it is shock. I mean, if Geo suddenly decided we should date other people too for a while, I'd be kinda in shock too. Though he would be too after I'd blast him into a wall.
... Maybe. I dunno. Maybe you should try that dating thing? It might seem kinda weird, but it might help you sorta settle on what it is you're feeling. And it might blow off steam, too.
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And I take it you can't teach me how to blast people into walls. Because that would really help. Like. A lot.
Dating thing?
... Could we date?
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Yeah, sorry, it kinda comes with the weirdo windy powers.
Yeah, you know, dating other people for a while. Not worrying about being serious or anything about it-- just go out and spend time with people, romantic, friendly, or whatever.
... if you promise to not try to come onto me? I don't mind going out with you and doing stuff.
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Bleh. That sucks.
... But I don't really know anybody?
... Eh. I'm kind of interested in you, so I might come onto you.
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... Then use it to get to know more people. I mean, if you do, you might feel less lonely.
... w-what, you still are?
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So how do I do it? It's not like I've got work or any responsibilities, since Mom's essentially all but said "You're an incompetent, so you're not working at my agency, and like hell you're inheriting anything".
Yes. You seem... nice. Friendly. Safe. Homely. Trustworthy. I guess I kind of want to be with a more mature partner...?
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Just ask people out, if they interest you. ... though that sucks that your mom basically said that.
W-well, uh. I'm. Flattered? B-but I don't think I'm really. Mature, anyway.
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She didn't. But you can definitely grasp that's her position. And. How? Not like anyone on this community even remembers I exist.
You're more mature than Noriko or Shiroko, that's for sure. ... I wonder where Noriko is. She. Just kind of up and vanished one day and stopped having Brunch. So. I'm kind of left alone 90% of the time now.
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Then remind them. Geeze. You should make yourself more apparent to the world instead of closing yourself up.
I dunno. I think she went insane or something, I'm not sure of the details there. ... but I'm really not all that mature. Seriously.
I do wanna spend more time with you, though. It sucks to be alone.
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Closing myself sounds better though. I. Just feel numb and don't really care.
Insane...? And you seem pretty mature to me.
I could use someone to spend time near...
Honestly, I just. Don't. Feel. Like myself anymore.
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