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[bdktty1214]

wow my heart is broken. Kenny can be such a fukn asshole! i hate him. i hate most 8th graders actually......they r all stupid fukers and backstabbers. kenny just wrote me this really sweet note to me and everything saying that he luvs me and misses me and what not and then he sayz he cant go out with me bc his gay friends are congradulating him on dumping me!! how fukn retarted is that?! it was probly stupid ppl who have fuct up relationships or cant even get relationships. hes a sick bastard anywayz. i dnt kno how the fuck i could still like him. Amy keeps telling me that he's an ass and i can get better than him but then again thats what every1 was telling him. i miss him so much but he breaks my heart....he really does. im so hurt right now and im glad i have this journal to express my feelings in. im going to the mall tomorrow......yay! hopefully my dad gives me money to buy new shoes and maybe ill see Kelli. she seems really cool. yea i miss kenny sooo much. i gotta stop thinking about him or im gonna wind up in a mental hospital or in rehab or sumthing....its not fair. its all my fault too. i should just die. i think my names mixed up. its supposed to mean "worthy of love" but i really dont think thats true when i look back on all the fuct up relationships ive had. guyz suck! cant wait till the weekend. i think me and jen s. and all my old friends from ma otha school are gonna go to the moviez on saturday. that should be cool cuz i havent seen them since the summa. i miss emily. i wish my life didnt turn upside down so much. a lot of good things happened to me but a lot of bad things did too. ive been so depressed and i know im gonna start gaining weight and getting fatter than i already am. that'll make me even more depressed. i didnt eat for 3 dayz and now i cant stop eating. god im so fat. im not gonna eat until september. it worked last year. i didnt eat the whole school year and i was sooooo skinny. im so damn fat now. i hate my legz. im gonna get my hair braided soon. i hope it lookz betta.yay laurenz online. now i can talk to her about my feelingz. she alwaiz makez me feel better. thatz how i know shes such a good friend. god im sad. i hate the ppl in this school sooooo much. my friends are mostly backstabbing liers. i cant stand it any more.i cant stand being here. it feels good to get these feelingz out in this journal. ok im gonna go

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