eh... alright
since friday i've had 2 amazing convos, one coming from Erika and another from Leah, and a few shitty convos, no need to mention names here. wow, i absolutely needed to get soooooo much off my chest on friday that i definetely said a LOT of stuff to Erika but it's alright cuz i can totally trust her w/ everything, so just thanks so much babes, u have no idea how much i appreciated it. Leah and i had a really good convo on monday and i'm happy that we did. this has been like the first time that we actually talked like this and i'm glad we did cuz now we understand eachother so much more. idk... i guess i kinda need to say some stuff here that most people wouldn't know about. i regret everything that i did from november until probably april of freshman year of highschool. just so much shit happened that shouldn't have happened and like i guess sometimes life just works that way but still. it was some of the hardest shit that i had to deal w/ and i'm so happy that it's done. just like here's the question that i've been trying to answer for so long... why do things that u know ur gonna regret in the future? i know that i've done that a few times but i just don't know why i did it and i can't figure it out either and it sux. i think i'm basically done for today. i don't feel like writing anything else....