Goodnight Moon
Eric,
Don't think anymore. just let your heart take over. it's going on the line anyway, so you may as well not make it worse with your brain too.
you can either hope
or she's lying to you.
or she's lying to herself.
she seems to very much want him and be focused on him and have decided on him and HIM and you're dead. but that it might not work with him. or she's finding the him she wants isnt him. the "home" isnt actually...him. or they'll still be together. either way it doesnt help you because whether she ends up with him or not if her heart has chosen him and is definitely focused on him...you lost. it's too late.
so keep hoping that you're there and she's lost and going through motions and seeing whats what with him and that somewhere she loves you still, and that you can get her to have faith in love.
and maybe get her back. and maybe get that love to be focused on committing to love and you, if she's what you love.
and at the very least, keep trying until it's too late, so you can live with yourself and say you at least did everything you could for love and her.
and to show her that you're there and you love her.
and to teach her and maybe help her and be there for her even if she doesnt want you there. try to help her to feel LOVE. so that even if she's gone for good she can look back and use it as a template for love, and maybe love herself.
it's far to egotistic to pretend that youre her heart and she's making a mistake.
realistically she's hella focused on him. but the reasoning behind that's a toss up.
you're a toss up still eric, as far as you know.
all you can do is try your best, and hope she sees it, and hope she has faith and believes, and that you're still somewhere in the center of it, and that it'll be before you're too late.
and again...that even if that fails, that you did everything you could for you and her, and her and her life and happiness.
now to go bed eric baby
Don't think anymore. just let your heart take over. it's going on the line anyway, so you may as well not make it worse with your brain too.
you can either hope
or she's lying to you.
or she's lying to herself.
she seems to very much want him and be focused on him and have decided on him and HIM and you're dead. but that it might not work with him. or she's finding the him she wants isnt him. the "home" isnt actually...him. or they'll still be together. either way it doesnt help you because whether she ends up with him or not if her heart has chosen him and is definitely focused on him...you lost. it's too late.
so keep hoping that you're there and she's lost and going through motions and seeing whats what with him and that somewhere she loves you still, and that you can get her to have faith in love.
and maybe get her back. and maybe get that love to be focused on committing to love and you, if she's what you love.
and at the very least, keep trying until it's too late, so you can live with yourself and say you at least did everything you could for love and her.
and to show her that you're there and you love her.
and to teach her and maybe help her and be there for her even if she doesnt want you there. try to help her to feel LOVE. so that even if she's gone for good she can look back and use it as a template for love, and maybe love herself.
it's far to egotistic to pretend that youre her heart and she's making a mistake.
realistically she's hella focused on him. but the reasoning behind that's a toss up.
you're a toss up still eric, as far as you know.
all you can do is try your best, and hope she sees it, and hope she has faith and believes, and that you're still somewhere in the center of it, and that it'll be before you're too late.
and again...that even if that fails, that you did everything you could for you and her, and her and her life and happiness.
now to go bed eric baby