bipolar day..major bipolar-ness.
okay..well i am in a bad/good mood.. right now its a good mood cause i just ate 83091 oreos like everyday. but my mood will change in prob 2 sec..just cause im bipolar and all... =)
um today sucked majorly- i hate school officially..ive given up..actually no i havent..but im getting there- its so hard for me..and it shouldnt be- im not kidding i have so much trouble and the feeling just sucks.. i got my seat changed in spanish "cause she sehs the back of my head too much, and i am very talkative.." same with the rest of the cllass- so i give her the big attitudes now- and thats what she deserves, so now i am in the way back of the room all alone- and i am mute the whole period just so i cant get into her head that she was wrong of moving me- and today during the test i just stared directly at her and every1s head was down like looking at their test and whatever she said i just looked at her so she owuld try not to look at me..she got the bitch out of me.. and the bitch is what she will see..and yesterday i sat behind ali when she moved me again and she told me to sit behind tommy but i sat behind ali insted so like she goes- gillian go inback of tommy- and ben goes- ur such a moron go and i scream out - ben honestly shut the fu- ur mouth..i dont think any1 heard me but it was pretty loud but i saved myself.. so i was never like this is class and i thought i was ike talking back to my sister or something ..i was like weirded out by myself. whatever that class officially blows.. THEN i got hit by a snowball..people r out to get me.. it sucks.
so today- sucked also! big suprise..spanihs was again a hated class..i got hit again by another snowball..tomorrow im scared cause i feel like 1 person is just gonna hit me right in the face 1 day.. hoemstly the scchool can suck a dick..im in no mood for the assholes in school anymore..god. then i had to stay after for skiing ..and then i got hit by another snowball- cough-ali-cough..sorry ali i was in no mood at that point- so i lost my temper.
im really not in the mood for anything lately .. my period is like not there- but it is.. its like no joke- dry blood that is coming out in clumps..nasty information. ew. gross.
me and my sister wrestled for like a half hour today- it was fun..i felt like i was in fight club and i fought to get my stress and anger out..such a good movie.
i still have to shower- and tomorrow is skiing.. i dont want to go..im tired. whatever
its supposed to be like 65 degrees tomorrow-- what to wear? what to wear?
i really need to shape up in school..but i fell completly asleep in math today- i finished all my work and coulldnt keep my eyes open and i had a dream..first real hardcore sleep in schoool- i kept fighting to stay away.. it was really good- but for the rest of the day i was like awake- good power nap..
im in such a weird mood- all i want to do right now is - sing in the shower[my new hobby]. eat. sleep. and do CPR-[im getting really into it..i like breathing into the dummy haha-i think ii want to take CPR class, like i dont stop talking about CPR..maybe i can be like a parametic or whatever they r ..its just so fun ..i like it a lot ..] oh and i want to drive on 1 road and see where it takes me.
time to shower- goodbye all. now i am in a so-so mood.. all these moods piss me off..i mean look at my icon..he doesnt have a face..fuckface.