Gram update
Ok so my gram is still hanging in there, but they are giving her meds to slow her down. When we see her she looks like shes sleeping which she is but. It wont be long now the nurse says.. Poor gram but we love her and she doesnt seem to be in any pain which is good.. so yeah. we had robs 30th birthday party on saturday, it went well he looked like he had a good time with all his family and friends. Jen put on a Good Party for her hubby.. so next to that nothing has been going on. just the whole gram thing and work... Nothing else going on in my life sad i know but im getting used to it... Kevin im pissed at a little... Now that his love is back in his life hes not the same and i hate it.. i hate him for that.. he asks me about gram and then he leaves me, when i really need him...and he forgot about jens party when everyone wanted him to go... its like wtf..he has all this time but then she comes back in his life and its like trish i will come see you when i have time.. and its like im supposed to be fine with it.. you dont do that to people... not friends that are there for you. Im just pissed cause this always happens and i dont feel its right! but whatever... Like my sister always said you cant trust anyone but yourself, live for yourself and if someone comes along great but always be ready learn to be independent.. cause down the road ur bound to get hurt...and you know what shes right cause it always happens to me... cant seem to find a good guy seem to lose em all.. how dont know but for whatever reason they leave ... I just want to give up like gram.. I cant do anything right. get called shit get blamed for shit I dont do... It comes to a point where your like if I'm all these things then wtf maybe i shouldnt be here maybe i should be like gram, and have people killin me off... i dont know anymore...