Last Night was Crazy
Wow I just had one of the best nights I have had this year. My neighbors that I am not sure if I like or not had a party last night and they ended up inviting me to it but I turned them down because I just feel horrible. But then later the charismatic one Sergio came over and asked me a little later and I agreed to go over for a little bit. I ended up meeting this guy, Justin, and like spent the whole night talking to him. It was just awesome. He is in the exact same place that I am in where he just moved back into Tally and is trying to rebuild his life. I ended up talking to him from about 11:30 when I finally agreed to go to the party for like the rest of the night. I ended up inviting him to come over to my apartment at like 3:30 in the morning and at about 4 I decided I just wanted to out myself to him so I wouldn't do anything stupid and put myself into a bad situation. He said he had no idea but, he said the most amazing thing to me, it was something like "well it doesn't really matter to me, I liked you before I knew, and so why should I feel any different now?" That is honestly like the best thing that anyone has ever said to me. I am feeling like so good about myself today. So after he was amazingly supportive and we talked about me being tg for a little bit and he got all his questions anwsered, we went right back to talking about other things. We ended up talking on my couch until like 6 in the morning and then he ended up sleeping over at my apartment with me. We kissed a little bit and he held me while we were sleeping, but nothing beyond that. The only thing I want to do right now is call him, but I know that is a horrible idea, esp. since he left like an hour and a half ago. lol. Dont be crazy, dont be crazy, dont be crazy... thats what I am going to be telling myself all day today and probably tomorrow. haha. But Life is Good. I have finally gotten my confidence back the last couple of days and it is really making a difference in everything.