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I find it hilarious I am sitting here today reading over facebook and I realize how much I have left my life pass by. How often than not do we sit back and let what other people say or do to us define who or what we are becoming. We get talked about and we plaster it across facebook and then the fight has moved into a more public arena. Does this seem familiar to any of us? It does to me it seems like we have fallen right back into the scenario of high school. How often did we complain to our group of friends that we didn't like this person because of something they said or did then next thing we knew it was all across school. This makes me wonder how often I do it myself. How often do I take my life problems to Facebook and find that I have just made it worse on me because something I say is taken out of context or even totally mis construed. I left high school a little over ten years ago and I don't want to go back but I feel it is so easy some days to fall back into the trap of petty wars and fights. Life is not all about boys and which girl is the most popular. Although plenty of my friends from that time period can attest I did the same thing as many people have going through high school. I left the people around me decide who I was instead of deciding to find out on my own who I am. That is my own problem to deal with and I am realizing I still deal with it on a daily basis. I look at my daughters and my son and realize I don't want to see them go through the same life I did. I want them to believe in themselves, and not let others decide for them who they are and who they want to be. I want them all to be able to look in the mirror and go okay do I look perfect? No and I don't have to be I just have to be who I want to be.
How do you figure this out though?
That is my next feat I feel. Is for not only me to learn how to describe who I am and what I am, but learn how to pass a healthy self of esteem on to my children. How does a mother who for years has hidden behind herself by using the names that kids called her in high school step out and say enough is enough I am not that person and I will never act like I am that person again. I feel like I have a long road a head of me and no map to point me towards North let alone the directions to tell me if North is even the correct way to go. I'm a little lost right now so I think I will walk away for now and hope that I can find the answers throughout the next week or so. I didn't get here over night and I will not be able to fix myself over night either.
Tags: fixing my life
How do you figure this out though?
That is my next feat I feel. Is for not only me to learn how to describe who I am and what I am, but learn how to pass a healthy self of esteem on to my children. How does a mother who for years has hidden behind herself by using the names that kids called her in high school step out and say enough is enough I am not that person and I will never act like I am that person again. I feel like I have a long road a head of me and no map to point me towards North let alone the directions to tell me if North is even the correct way to go. I'm a little lost right now so I think I will walk away for now and hope that I can find the answers throughout the next week or so. I didn't get here over night and I will not be able to fix myself over night either.
Tags: fixing my life