the apology
round 1
Friend: I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, and if I did I am truly sorry, but I was just joking around, like you were joking around. But what I was saying was a come back. You started it. Not that it should matter.
round 2
Friend: I really am sorry, Carolyn. It was reflex wit. Sub-concious jabs.
XOmegaGoddessx [2:39 AM]: wit? that was mean. cruel and nasty. it wasn't joking. i can take a joke.
XOmegaGoddessx [2:40 AM]: generally.
XOmegaGoddessx [2:42 AM]: i just can not believe that you joked about something that you know i've got problems with. i honestly dont know how to accept your apology.
XOmegaGoddessx [2:42 AM]: :(
XOmegaGoddessx [2:43 AM]: why didn't you apologize at the pool hall?
round 3
Friend: When I'm picked on or attacked, I respond in kind, even if is just joking. I didn't mean to choose a subject you are...touchy about. I am sorry I did though, and I'm sorry I hurt your feelings. That's my apology.
round 4
Friend: I'm sorry, Carolyn, I really don't know what else you want me to say...I don't really know if there is anything else I can say
XOmegaGoddessx [2:54 AM]: i value you as a friend. a. friend. all i'm asking from you is that you not be so frikken mean. i dont know if you meant it or not. i probably never will. i believe you because you are my friend. i'm just upset, other wise i'd be asleep right now. i can't go away angry at you, so i guess i have to accept your apology and move on.
its just that i only have so much self esteem and it deflates dramatically when someone i consider a friend damages it.
round 5
Friend: Look, darling, you shouldn't let ignorant jabs from a second rate loser like me injure your self esteem, you are wonderful all by yourself, no matter what any one says. Even so, I'm sorry, I AM your friend, and just for that I shouldn't have said what I said.
----note from the future----
i never should have trusted this lying, deceitful son-of-a-bitch. its one thing to lie to me. its another to lie to someone i LOVE about me.
its one thing to say you're my friend and another to HACK INTO MY FUCKING ACCOUNTS BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO GODDAMNED LIFE OR SENSE OF PRIVACY.
Fuck You, You Lying Manipulative Bitch.