:/
soo bad.
I have a JC Penny credit card, only because I work there.
I have a capital one credit card because it was my first credit card I was offered and i needed to "build credit."
AND NOW. I fucking have a macy's card. Because I wanted to buy some shoes... I am so fucked sooner or later.
I can not manage my money, time, etc. I am horrible at organization!!! It is soo stressful.
I have so much shit to worry about and it is not only stressing me out, but it makes David stress out because he is worried about me worrying so much about EVERYTHING. :[ UGH.
I really wish I had not fucked up so many things so randomly. I wish I could go back in time. FUCK.
I stress about school, what im going to school for, work, my mom and family, how my family treats me, how i look, my friends, things to wear, getting things done, not having enough time for anything, money, all the shit with the car crash, then i stress about all this and can't sleep, then I stress about how I can't sleep LEADING TO ME NOT SLEEPING MORE! I got two hours of sleep last night. Then I went to work, went to davids, took a 20 min nap, now I am spending my night freaking out and not sleeping.
And speaking of the car crash, I have heard NOTHING from the police. STILL. like 3 months later. I am terrified that this will turn around to fuck me over as well. I got a letter from the car that I hit saying that I owe them just under $5000 for shit that was done to repair this car. I don't see how this is possible. I barely hit the car. UGHDSGSDFH.
And if it was easy to just not spend money I wouldn't! But honestly you have to buy so much shit in life. Computer bill, Cell phone bill, Car bills for the shit I fucked up (I DONT OWN NOR DRIVE A CAR.), makeup, work clothes, work shoes, food, school shit, classes, books, fun things, gas money for someone here, gas money for someone there, bus money, fun money, tampons, bras and underwear, SHIT DSGSFHDFG
okay. end of HUGE rant for tonight.
sorry guys!
I have a JC Penny credit card, only because I work there.
I have a capital one credit card because it was my first credit card I was offered and i needed to "build credit."
AND NOW. I fucking have a macy's card. Because I wanted to buy some shoes... I am so fucked sooner or later.
I can not manage my money, time, etc. I am horrible at organization!!! It is soo stressful.
I have so much shit to worry about and it is not only stressing me out, but it makes David stress out because he is worried about me worrying so much about EVERYTHING. :[ UGH.
I really wish I had not fucked up so many things so randomly. I wish I could go back in time. FUCK.
I stress about school, what im going to school for, work, my mom and family, how my family treats me, how i look, my friends, things to wear, getting things done, not having enough time for anything, money, all the shit with the car crash, then i stress about all this and can't sleep, then I stress about how I can't sleep LEADING TO ME NOT SLEEPING MORE! I got two hours of sleep last night. Then I went to work, went to davids, took a 20 min nap, now I am spending my night freaking out and not sleeping.
And speaking of the car crash, I have heard NOTHING from the police. STILL. like 3 months later. I am terrified that this will turn around to fuck me over as well. I got a letter from the car that I hit saying that I owe them just under $5000 for shit that was done to repair this car. I don't see how this is possible. I barely hit the car. UGHDSGSDFH.
And if it was easy to just not spend money I wouldn't! But honestly you have to buy so much shit in life. Computer bill, Cell phone bill, Car bills for the shit I fucked up (I DONT OWN NOR DRIVE A CAR.), makeup, work clothes, work shoes, food, school shit, classes, books, fun things, gas money for someone here, gas money for someone there, bus money, fun money, tampons, bras and underwear, SHIT DSGSFHDFG
okay. end of HUGE rant for tonight.
sorry guys!