this entry is for ralph.
ok so our date last night didn't go as planned. i was sad, you were sad, some scolding, apologies were made, some more apologies and then end of story.
Everything went great, haven't seen him for 2 weeks so i was anticipating it probably much more than he did. I even fixed myself up for him, spent more time than usual on my hair, wore the shirt that he liked, the pants he gave me, accidentally wore matching shoes. etc.. We arrived, held hands and walked around like a typical couple that just makes you wanna barf. Chose a movie that i already seen but am willing to see it again just for him. Dragged him from one girl store to another until the stores started to close. Went in the theater, offered me your jacket, thankfully accepted it, watched the movie, left the theater and went to go eat. Then things went downhill from there. I can't say much but dad's are waay too overprotective. Dad tells me to grow up and i try to but at the same time he wont let me go. shady deal dad. Dad said some things to him that were unnecessary, it made me sad to the point where i was hiding my tears from him. I was powerless, torn between defending and comforting him and respecting my own father. I stayed shut. I came home at one in the morning and went straight to bed, thought of how he felt, of how embarrassed i was, of the anger towards my dad, my love towards my dad, confusing myself until i fell asleep. Then my brother said some hurtful things, i was hurt at first but i didnt care because he did the exact same thing before so he's no better than i am. The only one who understands is my mom and dave. i guess they relate and see the pain i go through. if only they'd let me go ..
Happy 16th Birthday Mirielle. Sorry i couldn't come to your get-together =)
random pictures from old to recent.
late night drive down wilshire. a year ago
our first real picture. a year ago
hahah this is retarded. weeks ago
his room, notice elmo, the penguin pillowcover, and the "property of diane" sign on the corner. 3 weeks ago
on the phone with me. he misses me. 2 weeks ago