Sep 29, 2010 15:41
Took my first organic chemistry test. I predict a low B or high C. As I walked to the front to turn it in, Dr. G. personally collected it from me and said, "I need to see this." I grimaced. Last thing I need is for him to see how horribly I'm doing. :/ I tried my hardest to focus when I studied, but I was just too anxious.
Broke down and picked up the white North Face jacket. And the weather just cooled down. I've gotten a lot of compliments already. Not sure how to explain to people that I own two of them now, despite being a simple bartender.
I think this whole incident with Jason is going to be more damaging to my psyche than I had anticipated. Who will I ever be able to trust?
10:25 pm. I'm realizing that I'm an anxious bundle of nerves, and it's permeating every aspect of my life. I'll be glad when this gets resolved, because I'm not the person I want to be. I can't relax and be happy with people who are trying to be good to me. I'm wishing I were dead again. This is all because he's decided to simply ignore me instead of have the balls to just break up with me and apologize for initiating something, then deciding it was worthless.
Good thing Brittany S. Pierce was on Hulu to cheer me up. I laughed my bitch ass off. :-D And that Slave 4 U number was incredibly hot. Now, back to being miserable. ;)
jason