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her birthday is getting close. Has anyone noticed?
How can you be so selfish and blind? you think that it doesn't hurt me to do that. You think that the isolation doesn't hurt. But you don't know. You don't know where the pain is. You think no one is there for you right now. well where were you the day we were all packed into the pews of a church, when Katie was crying on my shoulder, when we were all tryign to be strong? you made excuses. DONT' YOU THINK THAT DEATH SCARES ME? Funurals being scary isn't an excuse. I can't look at dead things without feelign the worst empty pit. I can't see somethign dye in a MOVIE without wondering where they will be on the other side, and dying of pain for them. and it's not even real.
You don't understand.
Doors are open now.. and they're stuck that way. No matter how hard we try to close them.
How can you be so selfish and blind? you think that it doesn't hurt me to do that. You think that the isolation doesn't hurt. But you don't know. You don't know where the pain is. You think no one is there for you right now. well where were you the day we were all packed into the pews of a church, when Katie was crying on my shoulder, when we were all tryign to be strong? you made excuses. DONT' YOU THINK THAT DEATH SCARES ME? Funurals being scary isn't an excuse. I can't look at dead things without feelign the worst empty pit. I can't see somethign dye in a MOVIE without wondering where they will be on the other side, and dying of pain for them. and it's not even real.
You don't understand.
Doors are open now.. and they're stuck that way. No matter how hard we try to close them.