Exchange, day 14
Well, this week went by quickly. We've had lots of school- only got to leave on Wednesday for Toledo (which was AMAZING, by the way). We've been watching Spain vs. US soccer during lunch, and we've visited most English classes with kids from all ages. Yesterday Rosa and I gave some presentations in Spanish for the basic English class. (That was pretty hard, but still fun.)
Our teacher has informed us that we have been given the highest Spanish compliment, of being "properly raised." Apparently our manners are the best they've seen (though I would beg to differ :P). That felt pretty nice.
We spent all of Wednesday at Toledo- saw a cathedral, synagogue, and a church. Spent a lot of time out shopping- I have less than 10 euros left, and that was including the money that Javi's mom gave me. XD So, I'm done shopping. (I got a knife for my twin, a small bull figure for my dad, earrings and a scarf for me, and a Spanish flag :D) I'm also done taking pictures- my camera is full. But I suppose those both mean I've been having a great time. (If I find a button that's cheap I'll buy it for my backpack, though. I'm a sucker for buttons.) Translated a couple songs (Teenage Dream and Just the Way You Are) for Javi- more on that later.
Javi's been sick the past couple of days. Hopefully he'll feel up to going out tonight- it being the last weekend, we're partying every day. Not my choice of activity, but I think it'll be fun. Last night we went out to a park and played American vs Spaniard soccer- I played goalie for a bit and was actually pretty good. Only had problems when the ball was coming at my head and I cared more about defending myself than the goal. XD Javi made so many shots- I was afraid of those. He's very good. :)
So.. I told Javi last night that I liked him. Gave him the lyrics I'd translated (and now I'm not sure if I should have, 'cause it makes me feel embarrassed..). He wasn't bothered.. but he told me that he loves me like part of the family, not -love-. And that's okay. He also said he has a girlfriend.. which I think is new, cause Elba didn't know.. -shrug- I was pretty upset at first- took my shower early and cried a little. Felt better afterwards, though still a little empty. For some reason it makes everything about the exchange feel a little empty, which doesn't make sense- I've made friends for life with these people, I don't need romance with them to tie us together. I sort of wish I hadn't said anything, cause then I could still have that lovely puppy-dog feeling.. but at the same time I suppose it's better to get it off your chest/to know/to not have it always gnawing at you- what if I had said something? I'll just keep treating Javi the same as I've always done, and hope that things continue well.
I really wish it weren't time to leave. I love it here so much, and I still love Javi, his family.. choosing between France and Spain next year will be hard (even the option of staying home will be in there- do I want to open myself up to this kind of unlucky love again?). But I'll try and stay positive. This has definitely been one of the best experiences of my life. :)
Our teacher has informed us that we have been given the highest Spanish compliment, of being "properly raised." Apparently our manners are the best they've seen (though I would beg to differ :P). That felt pretty nice.
We spent all of Wednesday at Toledo- saw a cathedral, synagogue, and a church. Spent a lot of time out shopping- I have less than 10 euros left, and that was including the money that Javi's mom gave me. XD So, I'm done shopping. (I got a knife for my twin, a small bull figure for my dad, earrings and a scarf for me, and a Spanish flag :D) I'm also done taking pictures- my camera is full. But I suppose those both mean I've been having a great time. (If I find a button that's cheap I'll buy it for my backpack, though. I'm a sucker for buttons.) Translated a couple songs (Teenage Dream and Just the Way You Are) for Javi- more on that later.
Javi's been sick the past couple of days. Hopefully he'll feel up to going out tonight- it being the last weekend, we're partying every day. Not my choice of activity, but I think it'll be fun. Last night we went out to a park and played American vs Spaniard soccer- I played goalie for a bit and was actually pretty good. Only had problems when the ball was coming at my head and I cared more about defending myself than the goal. XD Javi made so many shots- I was afraid of those. He's very good. :)
So.. I told Javi last night that I liked him. Gave him the lyrics I'd translated (and now I'm not sure if I should have, 'cause it makes me feel embarrassed..). He wasn't bothered.. but he told me that he loves me like part of the family, not -love-. And that's okay. He also said he has a girlfriend.. which I think is new, cause Elba didn't know.. -shrug- I was pretty upset at first- took my shower early and cried a little. Felt better afterwards, though still a little empty. For some reason it makes everything about the exchange feel a little empty, which doesn't make sense- I've made friends for life with these people, I don't need romance with them to tie us together. I sort of wish I hadn't said anything, cause then I could still have that lovely puppy-dog feeling.. but at the same time I suppose it's better to get it off your chest/to know/to not have it always gnawing at you- what if I had said something? I'll just keep treating Javi the same as I've always done, and hope that things continue well.
I really wish it weren't time to leave. I love it here so much, and I still love Javi, his family.. choosing between France and Spain next year will be hard (even the option of staying home will be in there- do I want to open myself up to this kind of unlucky love again?). But I'll try and stay positive. This has definitely been one of the best experiences of my life. :)