Little silly me
Is this normal? Why am I obsessing over something that can't be changed no matter what I do? Why am I obsessing over the fact that she seems to like someone else who I feel is either equal to me, or (in my mind anyway) inferior? Maybe it's the fact I've been shot down without even being given a chance. maybe it's because I've built up this strange fantasy in my head. maybe it's the fact that I've not had a real relationship in three years now. or maybe, just maybe it's the fact that I now have to spend ten days on the road with her, just peering from afar with no one but myself and god being the wiser to the fact that I squirm when I think about it. or maybe I'm just being stupid. that's probably it.