Aug 08, 2005 09:23
brian: i need an excersism
me: mike stop being gay
brian: no he didnt
brian: friday?
me: no tommoro.
brian: yeah...friday
brian: ahhh my leg!
me: thats why God gave you two.
if you can think of any others pease post 'em
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Lemme put it in this context... you're unwilling to post memmes or surveys in your journal- because of what it stands for. I commend you on that. I commend you on sticking to your guns and only keeping good, godly things that help you grow in your journal. So... how is it healthy for you to pop into someone else's journal and start comment threads about vaginas and tampons? Or even though it's in reference to you putting your pants on wrong... the implied innuendo? I mean... hello?
I'm not judging. Don't start on me there. I'm simply suggesting that you could potentially be painting yourself into a corner. I have a lot of shared LJ friends. There are people who had one of my friends as a friend and saw my name in a comment on our mutual friends blog. How would you feel if one of the people reading on your growth and developement and non-secular thought processes just sort of wandered over here and found you randomly talking about certain parts of the female reproductive system? Or if one of Chris' friends wandered into your journal from these comments? Is it unfair for them to make the kind of evalutations of you from these things? Yes, without a doubt.
Take it from someone who was criticized in his journal because a couple of the people in his "friend of" section listed some more questionable things as interests. We are not privilaged to have the comfort of speaking one way half the time, and another way the rest. It's something I've wrestled with for sometime as well, and something I'm more and more convicted about as people talk about you... wondering if they speak the same way about me to you (or anyone) and what I can do to help prevent them from doing so.
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For quite some time... you've pulled yourself out of lives. You obviously wanna be a part of them.
We did a Bible study thing a long time ago. Me, you, Chris, and Zach. There's one page I have. There's even notebooks stuffs. And we never got past the first lesson.
if you really have an interest... and really care, can't ya start talkin to us about God again?
And... I know you don't mean harm... but, you have done the same you're telling me is unfair now. I think when I spoke out against it, I had people refering to it as 'shoving my convictions down people's throats'
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You're preparing to head off to Bible college. God showed me that he didn't want me there about a year and a half ago, but a few months ago I started toying with the idea of going with you. You were talking about your own fears of going- of the effects both at college and the ramifications of your departure here. God shut me down again. My point... it is awesome that God is taking you to this place. Not just in your walk with him, but in an actual, literal place. A tangible place, with buildings and shrubbery... I'm assuming there will be shrubbery at whatever college God takes you to. If there's no shrubbery... it may be a sign or something. Anyway... once you're there, you'll not only be surrounded by the sort of people who are going to scrutiny you because they've been raised in a different walk than you have (snooty PKs... not that all of them are snooty. Mike is the exception) and some are going to be in a different place than you...
I'm not trying to scare you but... there are times when us guys- Chris, Michael, Danny, you and I... we don't show the way of Christ in the way we talk. You proved that the other night when you brought up what Michael's conversation was and I jokingly suggested we pray for Michael... I'm not joking now. We need to pray for Michael's tongue. We need to pray that God reigns the bad thoughts in and lets the good thoughts loose to run and play and frollic in his brain. We all need God to do that for us... because when we go back and forth and we show these two sides... we're not really showing the way of Christ- and really, that's what we need to be doing more than anything.
As for everything else... I have those study books- the scripture notes and questions to consider... notebooks galore... but I'm not the one who's responcible for your guys' growth. It's like you told me: I don't have any authority. Someone else does, and I'm convicted that I have no place in teaching anyone anything unless I have consent to do so. Otherwise, I could say something wrong and screw everything up. It's a burden... it's a Brobdinagian burden and yes, I want more than anything to be a part of your guys' lives... but I can't. I'm not allowed. It's not my job.
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The only person with that authority is Blair, and then there's God who is the Ultimate Authority.
Preacher doesn't have that authority. He can advise me not to, but he can't make me (though, I prolly would, as a lot of my potential growth is in his hand, and the Bible tells me that he is still in authority over me, whether or not my interaction with Blair's flip flop is a part of that).
Mr. Mike doesn't have that authority, because he's left. He also could advise me, and I'd follow that. he's never led me wrong before. He recognizes risks and temptation that I'd never consider.
Miss Naomi doesn't have that authority. I'm not a bus kid anymore, and she's not my youth pastor, either. I'd listen to what she says, because she knows Blair's feelings really well, and if she told me not to do something to Blair (or her shoes) then I'd stop, assuming that Blair herself was displeased.
Brother Farlin doesn't have that authority. He could advise me, and I'd prolly listen to him and prolly take his advice, because he's been down the road and accumulated wisdom, and he's the prime example (with his wife) of a happy relationship.
Danny doens't have the authority. he could advse me, and I'd prolly ignore it. Because he doesn't understand the relationship me and Blair have, and he doesn't have wisdom to share with e concerning it (prollly not, anyway).
My point is that nobody really has that authority. The only reason I pointed it out to you is because it seemed like the only reason you said it was because you wanted to. Not because of some wisdom I don't have, not because you know Blair's feelings better than I, not because you are afraid I'm fallign in some sort of trap...
I think it was mostly because you just wanted to.
At least, you didn't offer a reason. You just told me to stop (and made the face you make at Danny when he's being unkind). I didn't apreciate the facial expression (though, I imagine that wasn't a purposeful thing, it's more of a showing of frustration than anmything else) and I didn't understand your purpose for commanding me to do something that was between me and Blair.
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Having explained that, I apreciate the advice. I understand what ya mean, and I see the problem. I'm gonna work on fixing it, I'd like your help.
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My purpose for it was multi-fold. Blair appeared aggitated. Like she just wanted you to stop and back off, before she snapped and killed us all by climbing into the baptistry, drawing out an ouzi, and being joined quickly by the Yardies. You seemed blind to that, giggling and apparently doing it because you were enjoying yourself- her temperment be condemned. Additionally, I cite out that there have been times where what you perceive to be your relationship with someone acting out it's natural course has on occassion turned ugly. Recall the time Blair became frustrated with you, and in her anger slammed a door, knocking an ornament off the wall- only to become the target of Mrs. Rowell's anger? Often, you fail to see when you have gone too far- and others suffer the consequences.
I'm trying to recall if that incident was before, after, or during the shoe-stealing incident... Hmm. No matter.
Tonight, I hung out with some people... good people. Awesome people. I'd be worse off if not for them. My point... at one point in the conversation, one of the people in my company had inadvertently said something that had made another in the group feel bad. I saw the hurt look on their face. I saw what they had read into a harmless statement and knew what they were thinking... so I backpeddled on behalf of the person who had originally done the hurting. You missed one reason... the reason that rules most everything I do and say... I like to see people happy, and hate to see them sad. I didn't want to see a rift form between the duo- just like I didn't then. You appeared precariously close to either hurting someone, or getting hurt. I moved to stop it.
It hasn't happened since.
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That, and argue. But we haven't done that (sans a few times) since Januaryish.
Just last night I was across the street drinking pepsi and talking to her about her rebelious attitude. Well... I gave her one verse, then we talked about spending time with church people outside of church, and her feelings for which people she should be with.
Me and Blair are bound to clash and argue. I wouldn't have it any other way :-p
I didn't know what yu meant by it though. It's good to care about stuff like that... I'm sorry it hurt your feelings.
For what it's worth, they were the same night :-p
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i have not been informed of the actual subject of brian and blair, and dustin giving advice about shoes? but it seem that brian has a problem listning to athority, not than dustin is his supirior, but you have had others deal with you about this subject, and you had almost the same attitude. im not saying you have a problem with all athority, jus the ones who arent in actual athority, but at the same time still have your best interest in mind
and dustin, first of all HI!, second of all, CO-MUN-I-CATION! you have been know in the past to say things you dont mean, but i dont tink thats the case here. you cant expect everyone to listen to you, but brian will, even if it seems he doesnt. you cant jus tel hm hings once either, and one need to sit with him one on one and explain what you think he needs to do.
there im done.
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